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Final post of the year

2011-12-31T01:44:00.000+08:00

Just to do a short sum up for the year.

How do I rate the year of 2011? More to.. Bad =)

Of course there's good in between but just as there were many things that flowed smoothly, more went against the flow. In short, I'm confused and I somehow.. hated myself for who I am now.. =) I know it sounded negative.. But that's the fact about it. Of course I do thank God for everything.. (P.S. I'm not trying to be holy here) Anyway, back to the topic, if I could, I wish I could be like the Polar Bear, hibernate through a long period of time, and wake up feeling afresh-ed. I'm too weak to take this much loads. I am not capable. I am weak. I am fragile. Would you please, stop coming?

Dear God,

If you're listening to me now,

please, help me to get back on my knees.

I, am.. truly.. lost.. in.. EVERYTHING. Yesh I am indeed.

The many first time(s) in a day!

2011-11-18T02:27:00.003+08:00

Looks like I havent been updating my blog for long. A reason would be that I was a lil too busy and I never really have the mood to blog. LOL. Anyway, since there are too many things that happened today, therefore.. Ive decided to blog ==" Ahh well =="

As the title goes, the many first time(S) today. ==" First time, having and seeing a burglar broke into the house, first time wearing a towel and chase after a burglar, first time appearing so "sexily" in public ==" and of course, first time settling stuff without PaPa. =)

As usual, its Thursday! I finished my Land Law tutorial at 8pm, after settling stuff, I traveled home whereby I reached at about 8.30 pm. and as my pattern goes, online a while larh.. slack slack a while larh, before Ive finally decided to do my hair mask at about 9.30pm. So, I went to the toilet and was doing my hair mask and stuff, and when I came out, it is to my surprise or maybe I should say shock that I saw a guy in black and white stripes shirt, putting on my laptop bag and ran out from my room. I dont know where did my courage came from that I automatically run after him ==" Seriously, I thank God that he doesnt owns any weapon, or else I would have been injured or worse, died? LOL Okay, back to the situation.. I was in my towel (Yesh, dont doubt, only towel ==") and I chase after him right from 12th floor down to Ground floor. ==" Amazed? Hell yea.. you better be ==" Another thing that Im thankful for is that, neighbors are pretty nice and helpful.. Cause as I was running down, I shouted "pencuri" repeated and LOUDLY. LOL. that many neighbors came out and helped.

Adding more to your amazement, I (still in my towel) sort of asked the suspect some questions like "WOI! where is my laptop!? Give it back to me!" ==" I know its odd to do something like that, but nevertheless, I did that ==" The residents and guards then sort of helped me to "look after" him while I went back up to check whats lost and of course to clothe myself. I never really noticed that my make ups and jeweleries were stolen, all I noticed was that, my lappy and iPhone was lost. hahahahaha.. so I went back down and continue questioning the fella.

"where are my stuff?! where is my laptop?!" of course, he denied that he took them, however, later on he said "I never took your laptop, you go check properly in your room! Its there!" Instantly, another thought came into my mind "How on earth would you know that my laptop was in my room if you never been there?" He kept quiet for a lil while and continue denying. ==" (Duh!) I further questioned him on why was he in the residential compound by which he is not the resident.. and he said that he was visiting a friend. and when I asked him to call his friend down to clarify the misunderstanding, he then said that he just learns that his friend doesnt lives here anymore.. "What time you came?" "7 something.. No no. about an hour ago" "How did you entered the compound?" "front gate" "All the guards said they didnt saw you coming in.. If you never steal my stuff, why on earth did you run when I chase you?" "You chase I run larh, you got recognised the wrong person or not?" "Why then did you stayed in the compound for more than an hour when you have nothing to do in here? By the way, you havent answer me, how come you'll be able to tell me that my laptop is in my room if you never entered my room?" "Xiu Jie.. Ngor mm sek English ga, dim tong nei gong o? (Miss, I dont know English one lo.. how can I told you that?)" "Tao xin yao yan jeng dou teng dou nei gong lo.. (There's someone else heard you said that too).. and, if you dont know English, how come you managed to converse with me for so long in ENGLISH?" He never really answered or clarified this question, in fact, he kept on denying that he stole the stuff. Seriously, I wasnt 100% sure that he is the one who steal the stuff judging on the fact that I only managed to see the back of the guy who is in black and white stripes shirt. However, from the questioning session, I find loads of stuff contradicting, leading to him being more suspicious because they just simply doesnt convinced me. The security guards and residents helped me to search for the lost stuff in every floor, and thank God and the people that we managed to recover back the lost where they managed to find back my stuff at the corner of the 3rd floor. In the end, we let the guy go after taking pictures of him and his ic, then we proceeded to the police station to file a police report.. Aiks..

Haiz... Anyhow, it was indeed an adventurous day to me ==" too many first time situations that happened, but after all the stuff, I seriously thank God that Im fine, be it physically or mentally and emotionally. LOL. In fact, Im still a lil high spirited now.. hahahahahaha. Oh yea!!! Im glad that I was a athlete when I was much younger. at least Im able to run well and shout well at the same time.. Good stamina!! Phewwwiit! (Although I faced breathing difficulty after that. LOL) Aaaaaaaaaaaaanyway!!! Seeeeeeeeeeeeriously, I'm well amazed by my own courage and guts to chase after the burglar.. Dont you find it cool? LOL.. hahahahahhahaha that's basically it! Moral of the story, KL is never a safe place to live in! LOLOLOL!!!

P.S. The new layout of blogspot sucks! I know this is random, but its true! LOL

Just some thoughts

2011-07-18T15:57:00.004+08:00

Holiday. Long holiday. Super duper long holiday! Weeee~ Oh dear~ I'm pretty much ~~slacking~~ enjoying this holiday.. It just sorta feel great when you can sleep whenever you want, wake up whenever you want, rather stress free.. But, its a lil hmm.. numb throughout the whole period though. Oh gosh~ I wish I wont get too used to this, or else I'll be real doomed when the holiday ends.. =(

As usual, am having some thoughts in mind, thats why I'm here to blog marh~~ =P Poor bloggie had always been abandoned by its cruel Mummie (Me!!!) =P Anyway, this is one of the thoughts.. To do something that you dont really fancy over, yet its sorta bond you.. Dont it sounds a lil pitiful? Oh well, it is to me though.. Its like doing something that you dont like yet you are to do it.. Not to say it leaves you no choice, its more like, currently, its the most efficient(though not best) option your have, but you dont really like it? LOL. Ahh, I know what you're thinking, it must be "You choose it yourself marh, you have to bear its consequences larh" Ya ya ya.. Desperado~ Serves me right.. Duh.. Perhaps I did chose the wrong stuff, haiz.. But what to do, since I've walked through half of it, might as well finish it up right? Patience, its coming to an end! Jia you Chris! Haiz..

Another thing that came across the mind is hmm.. what we call trust? Its like sometimes you dont really believe it, but still, you're determined enough to persuade yourself to believe it; or sometimes you really do mind something, yet you're telling yourself hard enough that you dont mind. LOL! Hahaha.. Does it sounds a lil confusing? Okay, an illustration. "A ball is oval" First thought that comes in would be "Eh~~~ Ball should be round wutt, how can it be oval?" then the second thought comes along.. "Ahh well.. some balls are oval marh.. Dont think too much larh, maybe its right.." Even though the first thought convinced you more, but you're capable to overturn the final thought.. I wonder if you're getting what I'm trying to say. LOL! If you do, thank God! If you dont, awww.. too bad, I've tried my best to explain =( Whatever hey~ What I'm trying to say that, trust takes lots of courage.. Some people would name them stupid cause it may sound ridiculous, some people may call it naive cause its kinda dumb, some people might even see it as infirm.. Its like you dont have your own stand yet you're trying to follow what so-and-so had said. I think all that aint wrong, but its never easy to let go of your own ego and actually let yourself to do these kind of thing, especially for such choleric person like me.. *winks* Sometimes, its a kind of relief eh.. it cuts off loads of unnecessary doubts and fights.. Hehe.. Ah Duh~ in some ways, its kinda training your patience also marh! =P Think positively marh! Hahahahaha..

Last but not least, I think he's cute! ♥ =P

Blessed day people! and be happy, be merry and smile always!

Tah~

Putting a fullstop at the end

2011-05-15T22:08:00.007+08:00

Have you guys actually noticed that time passes very fast? Its so fast that, stepping into UM was like a matter that just happened not long ago.. Hahaha.. Anyway, this post is actually here to put a fullstop to my first year in law school. And YESH!!!! I've finished my year one! Can you believe that?! LOL.. Remembering last year's July, I was the only Chinese from my town in UM law school.. (Not just my batch, but like.. the entire law school? LOL.) Seeing most people were having their former schoolmates along while I was alone.. It was indeed depressing.. (I'm serious!! =() Loads of worries and doubts which went along with me.. I was scared that I couldnt fit into the crowds, nor could I really find someone to click with.. However, thank God, everything went pretty well, except for the fact that sometimes, weird feeling comes and emo moments hunt me down. Hahahaha.. But still, things went far way better than what I've expected.

In law school, most friends were nice.. easy going.. Even though I wasnt super duper-ly close with the entire batch yet, but I believe as time goes by, we'll get to know each other better in the coming 3 years for I have not met any weirdo that drives me crazy so far~ =P Therefore, I believe things will definitely go well until the end of law school.. and I truly pray for that to happen.. *winks* And of course, I want to thank God for setting friends who backed me up at times, not only physically, but also mentally and spiritually.. Definitely, also to thank all batch mates for bearing with me.. (for being patient on my "pattern-liao-liao-ness" especially! XD) Psssst pssst.. not forgetting the seniors, tutors and lecturers.. they've all been good! Whhooooops! <3

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~~ Done with finals. done with first year! Here comes of 4 months holiday~~~ Anyone wanna hire me for some work? =( I need money to buy stuff!! =(

Psssstt~~Dont jealous of my long holiday! =P

今天，想說··

2011-04-13T18:41:00.008+08:00

今天，想對一個很久沒見的朋友說··

“誒，木·· 好久不見，你還好嗎？” =)

突然就想用華語來打部落格·· 其中用意是想和大家說，其實我是會華語的~ 雖然沒有非常之好~ 可是還可以騙吃啦·· 哈哈·· 本姑娘這幾天心情還真的很不錯下·· 放下了一些東西，感覺上就好像丟了一個很大的包袱·· 可是呢，突然覺得很輕·· 輕到我自己不知道要做什麽·· 可能是長時間累積成的習慣，一下子不見了難免會有點不習慣，可是呢~ 解脫是值得高興的不是麼~~？

最近也突然就覺得呢·· 其實每個人都很厲害講，可是要真的要去執行的時候卻永遠不是一件很容易的事·· 當真的要提起心肝下定決心去做一件事的時候是需要很多勇氣的·· 可是啊·· 有時候我們做人還真的是要堅決點·· 可能有時候會傷心，會不捨得，可是真的，當你學會放下的時候，它真的會是一個釋放·· 整個人就鬆懈了下來·· 然後回頭一看，也會發覺到，其實你並沒有你想像中的那麼在意·· 只是曾經不願意嘗試一個你不熟悉的後果·· 不願意放棄你的習慣·· 在你決定了之後的一段時間你的人就會越來越開心了啦~~ 哈哈哈誒·· 記得記得不要讓自己哭太久，大大聲哭一場！哭飽了，發洩完了，就會是新的開始啦~ 哪位傷心的朋友啊~ 你要加油咯~ 我的笑送給你，希望你能快樂·· 我們一起開心美麗吧！♥

在我end我的日誌之前，想和大家分享一首我昨晚不小心聽到的歌·· 是一首蠻有名的歌，可是呢這個是原創者版本的·· 本人還真的有很喜歡這首歌·· 他的歌聲可能不是全部人都會喜歡，可是本姑娘喜歡啦~ 就覺得很有feel·· 很性感哈哈哈哈~ 這首歌的歌名叫《可惜不是你》·· 可是不是梁靜茹唱的，（可惜不是梁靜茹~~~）而是曹軒賓版本的·· 哈哈哈哈~~ 本姑娘特別喜歡他唱這首歌的感覺，更喜歡這首歌的歌詞·· 就覺得它很有意思··

這一刻　突然覺得好熟悉
像昨天　今天同時在放映
我這句語氣　原來好像你
不就是我們愛過的證據

差一點　騙了自己騙了你
愛與被愛不一定成正比
我知道被疼是一種運氣
但我無法完全交出自己

努力為你改變
　卻變不了　預留的伏線
　以為在你身邊　那也算永遠

　彷彿還是昨天
　可是昨天　己非常遙遠
　但閉上我雙眼　我還看得見

可惜不是你　陪我到最後
　曾一起走　卻走失那路口
　感謝那是你　牽過我的手
　還能感受那溫柔

那一段　我們曾心貼著心
我想我更有權利關心你
可能你　已走進別人風景
多希望　也有　星光的投影

感謝那是你　牽過我的手
還能溫暖我胸口

雖然曾經傷心； 道謝后，我們都各自加油··
曾經的那個你，謝謝了！你要加油哦！♥

Give thanks =)

2011-04-05T00:24:00.005+08:00

Though I'm super duper sleepy and tired now, but still I want to write about this 2 things that I'm thankful for today.

Firstly, I've passed my Tort! Which eventually mean that I dont have to retake? Hahahahaha... Oh well, it might not be good enough to some people, but who cares? As long as I'm at joy =P I know that Im not the best, but at least, Im trying to catch up somehow somewhere.. Lalala~ Back to the topic, God had indeed been faithful.. I've failed Him many times, but He was and is still faithful. I know I sounded a lil good-time-give-thanks-believer, I know that Ive messed up my spiritual life the past months, in fact year, but deep inside, He is still there and I'm slowly catching some fire for Him. Even though its kinda slow in progress, but nonetheless, its a good start isnt it? =) Again, thank God for the result.

Secondly, life has been rather down recently.. Mood swings high and low, changing almost at all time.. But this came to my mind : Family never fails me. No matter how hard people try to pull you down, family is always there to back you up.. I mean me *winks*.. No matter how emo, how sad, how bad the day is, once they appear, they just tear off my mask.. Its so encouraging and so "myself" when Im with them.. One thing that I'm most thankful for --- my family. They never let me go, they've been there all these while, just as when everyone is against me, yet they stood by me until Im done with my hard times. Seeeeeeriously, I doubt that I could make it this far if Im without them.. I know I'm blessed because of them.. =) I love you Daddie, Mummie, Kor kor(s) and of course PoPo and others. I love ya all loads. ♥

Friends

2011-03-19T19:32:00.007+08:00

Friends. A very common word to everyone, I believe. To me, the word "friend" is rather subjective.. As in, everyone has their very own definition over "friends". At least to me, I'm surrounded by many types of friends， or perhaps I should say different degree of friends. Some are very close while some are not. Until recently, I realized that, I really have these different categories of friends which I sorta find it kinda interesting, that's why I've decided to blog about it.. (Though another reason is that I havent been updating my blog for quite some time =X)

Its always in down times that you'll get to see who are your friends and who are not. Recent life had been rather.. challenging I would say. Mood had been on roller coaster, ups and downs.. It deemed good when I was surrounded by friends, however, it went back down when I'm alone.. I think its because when people keep you company, then you wouldnt have the time to think too much.. Whatever it is.. I'm glad for these bunch of people.. At least I'm much encouraged.

First category of friends : Friends whom you need not contact all the time, yet they appeared whenever you needed somebody and your relationship with them wouldnt be affected even if you guys had not kept contact for quite some time. This category of friends, are one that I would say, dearest of all, or what others may call "Best friend". Everytime you guys go out, there's no need to worry that, what are we to talk about later, cause your conversation would just flow automatically.. There is never a gap in between.

Secondly, friends who would keep you company to make sure you're okay.. These are those you told them tiny little things that you dont often tell the whole world.. They would just cared and make sure that you are alright.. If you're not, they some sort either advice, or physically accompany you.. They are the one whom you feel comfortable being with.. You may mumble or even cry over the shoulders to seek relief..

Next, friends who do crazy things together, at most times, I think this category of friends have the similar personality as I am.. Of course not totally, completely same..But what I meant is that, we share something in common.. We enjoy doing something together and have fun together.. We in some ways, give each other company and laughter..

4th one, normal friends.. These are friends that chat a lil when we bumped into each other.. Not so much of a detailed conversation, but more to a casual one.. Friends whom we dont usually find but, when needed. (DO I sounded selfish here? LOL.) Dont get me wrong, I dont mean by "using" them, its just that, we dont often get together.. Once in a while maybe.. Hmmm...

Last category, which I dont actually count them as friends.. But nonetheless, someone whom I knew, but our relationship are just like :
Oh! Hi!
Oh! Bye!
Pssstt.. Hi-Bye friends? Someone who are like total strangers and would only thought of them when you came across their name or met them on the street.. Or else, you wouldnt even remember them. =X

When I was much younger, I used to tell myself that, I dont need anyone, even if Ive got no friends, nothing will happen.. Of course, nothing will happen.. But, now I'm of the opinion that, friends are quite important. In times of need, especially when you have no one to talk to, they play great roles.. Just like now.. (To me)These few people, just did too much recently.. When I think I could no longer hang on.. They showed me that, "san, we're with you!"; they shared me their ears, their shoulders; they spent time and they cared.. Dare not say I'm totally okay, but I'm grateful that I have these bunch of people..

ＰＳ　：　Ｉｆ　ａｎｙ　ｏｆ　ｙｏｕ　ｈａｐｐｅｎ　ｔｏ　ｒｅａｄ　ｔｈｉｓ，Ｉ　ｈｏｐｅ　ｔｈａｔ　ｙｏｕ＇ｌｌ　ｋｎｏｗ　ｔｈａｔ　Ｉ　ｔｒｕｌｙ　ａｐｐｒｅｃｉａｔｅ　ｙｏｕ　ｉｎ　ｍｙ　ｌｉｆｅ　＝）

Apa-apa pun masuk post

2010-12-17T21:21:00.007+08:00

Phewwwiiit!! Aloha people, aloha bloggie~ Had been abandoning my dear blog for quite some time now... Finally caught some mood to type something~ I'd love to start with the Orang Asli Trip I went last few days! It was indeed another eye-opener to me, nevertheless, refreshing.. Remembering years ago, I went with Priscilla to Ongkel, the kids were so young, now, they've grown up! Most of them dont really change, as in terms of face, except for Azizah.. Hahahahahha... But it was really a joy to meet them again! They are still cheerful as usual, except for Rubiah who was a lil shy.. People are fine, cool.. the only changes that surprised me is the increment of the number of "buildings" there.. Hahahahaha.. Other than that, things were pretty much the same.. This time around, we dont only visit Ongkel, but also another village where there was this particular Auntie named Inak Mah... Who really did encouraged me a lot.. From her, I truly see what does it mean by "Take up your cross and follow me". Someone so loved the Lord that she is outcast-ed by the villagers as well as her very own children, claiming that "If one enters Christianity, it brings curses towards herself and the family". THough there's many circumstances, this was what she said "God had helped me in my very need of time, He provided and opened doors, it worth it". Thinking back on our lives, perhaps just mine alone, had I ever encountered this? To carry my cross and just follow Him? And putting my every hope on Him? It kept me thinking very long.. And still keeps me thinking.. One once said, "When you really grabbed hold of the One on high, you will never want to let go of Him." At least, Im learning and trying. =)

Anyway, Im currently on my Sem break! It reminds me of how time flies and 6 months just passed.. Phew~ Seriously, I thank God for everything, in the Law school, among friends and everything.. The time of seeking comfort in Him, I could still recall them.. So, talking about sem break, of course it means that exam is gone! Results will be out soon, I hope that it will turn out okay =( Im kinda scared now.. But never mind.. Hopefully things will turn out fine! You know what? Throughout the passed 6 months, I truly thank God for the company of friends that I got.. At least for times, there's someone there.. We did loads of craps together and things went well! I'd pray for this to continue throughout the coming 3 1/2 years! We will right brothers? Hahaha.. I heart ya all loads =)

Im stopping here for this time! Weeeeeeeeee!!! Im going home next week for Christmas! I miss PoPo, Daddie and Mummie loads! Cant wait to see them!

Blessed Christmas people! I'd pray for one day, the biggest gift of all will be revealed to everyone! =)

Christina

Blue =)

2010-10-31T23:04:00.009+08:00

Ahh, I never expect this post to be up here.. I've actually intended to post about my first semester back there in Law school. But, I havent really catch the feel of it.. So yea, postpone I guess? Hehe

Today is a lil blue.. A lil down.. A lil calm yet a lil complicated.. Could you feel the complexity? There's tonnes of things that flew across my mind.. Some are exciting, some are blur, some are annoying, some are... frustrating. So frustrating that it bothered me so badly. Throughout the years, I thought I kept it well, but it came out again.. The song reminded me of it.. Oh sweet yet heart breaking moments.. I've grew, I'm now a grown up, the way how I think things changed, the way how I feel things changed, the way how I carry out myself changed. But one thing remains, memories =) Aaahh.. its not so important isnt it? But the picture, it keeps popping up.. It just, wont stop. If only, I can really get over it.. I do hope I can.. Yea, Princess Chris! You can do it! Go Go Go!

Well, one good thing that Im thankful for today, I've found a good church and had decided to stay on.. I'd pray that I'll be able to grow there, not just to find back myself in Him, but can be one who would catch hold of Him and never wanna let go =)

Recently, I was screening through Facebook, came across a few profiles of people of my age range. Please dont get me wrong, Im not trying to be judgmental, but it just couldnt stop me from having this thought : "Why are these bunch of people so desperate?" Is BGR that important as if its like the only thing exist on planet earth? Not having a boyfriend or girlfriend is no big deal larh =.=" Trust me, they gave me a feel like they are selling themselves just as those in the Night Market =.=" Ahh! The world is insane! By the way, nothing personal to those singles who thought Im talking about them =)

Toast to those who love life and enjoy life, especially the Singles. Cheers!

Before 20 =X

2010-09-20T15:35:00.010+08:00

Ahh~ As the title goes, before 20 =X.. Just wanna jot down something before saying buhbye to my "-teen life" (If you get what I mean.. Hahahaha) Well, in a couple hours, I'll be turning 20! AaaaAaaaaaAaaa~ That's so soon! Reflecting back on the past few years, life was good~ Everytime people ask me "Eh~ How old are you ah~?" There is always this word -- 'Teen' tagging along the number, but starting from tomorrow, there'll no longer be one, it will be '-ty' =X Seriously, when I was much younger, I used to be feeling very excited about birthday, ah.. its most probably cause people will be asking you what you want.. I mean with those presents and all.. Hahahaha.. But as I grow older, birthday tends to be just another day.. Oh well, I'm just a day older than yesterday, a minute older than the past minute.. But, since everyone take it as a "hit" thingy, well, I think it might be good for me to put a leg in it too XD

When it comes to birthday, people often relates it with wishes.. 'What?! How many a?? 3?? Okay okay..." I never understand why people always make 3 wishes and the last one must be kept to him or herself.. Hahaha.. If I were given 3 wishes, first one will be, I want to love God more, I want to find my passion in Him again =) It'd feel so lost at times when I walked away from Him.. It eventually drives me crazy when I lost my way back =( 'Lord, if you do listen, ps. I love you =)' Okay~ we move on to the second wish! I want my family to be blessed abundantly! Be it physically, spiritually, in wealth, in their career, studies or anything elses! I want them to be in the best state in all things! The last one will be, I just needed some strength to keep myself going in my studies =)

OIK! Belum birthday sudah cakap banyak! Dima larh! Hahahahahaha.. Early wishes marh =P Blessed day! Be happy, be merry and smile always! ♥

從前……從前の所愛

2010-09-16T01:44:00.015+08:00

剛剛在Laptop前找一些課業上的資料的時候，爸爸進來我房間，然後在我的Desktop click了一首歌，一首我曾經很愛的歌~~ Bryan McKnight の Back To One！好浪漫的一首歌~ 好Man的一把聲音~ 霖死我啦~~~ 啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊~~~ ❤ 不知不覺的~ 我就聽了那首歌一個小時多~ 爸爸有很三八的進來 “哇老！還在聽啊？不悶的咩？！” “好聽嗎~” 之後，他很手癢的幫我換了首歌~ “Oik! 你換我的歌zomok?!” “我喜歡啊~ 我開的嘛~你吹啊~~” 我聽了這句整個人無言 【囧】 但是不用緊~ 他也開到了我想當年的愛歌， Veronica の Speechless！我說老豆啊~ 你怎麼那麼會挑，都挑到我喜歡的歌啊？-.-" 但是！聽不到一半，他又幫我換掉 -.-" 換去了 98 Degrees の You Are My Everything ~ 好聽~~~ 然後還沾沾自喜的和我說 “這首比較好聽” -.-" “當然啦~ 這些是我的歌嘛~ 本姑娘，我是很有taste屎的咯！”哈哈哈哈 XD

因為老豆的手癢亂按~ 我去開了舊folder~ 然後很隨手的 Click 《Play All》❤ 突然又察覺到，舊歌真的好聽很多~ 特別有Feel的咯！哈哈哈哈唔知做乜咁~ 但系佢就系特別貼切~ Play 著~ Play 著~ 就 Play 到了【木腦殼】一首歌詞很簡單，但是又很有感覺的歌.. 應該算是對一般小女生很貼切的一首歌.. Hmm.. Or 我應該說有點像自己的一首歌~ 哈哈哈哈 XD 聽完了這首歌，竟然有種感覺還想再聽，於是跳下了床，走到Desktop那裡要 replay咯~ 抬頭一看 “Eh..？歌手是張靚穎喔！”有冇搞錯哦？！你喜歡這首歌那麼久，竟然不知道歌手是誰？！ Oik！那有什麽出奇Jek？我本來就是聽歌不看歌手的啦 -.-" 天啊！Anyway！和你們 share share 這首，我很喜歡，也可以感覺到自己在裏面的一首歌~ 希望你們也會喜歡啦！❤

我是木脑壳
你说的没错
我喜欢简单生活
事情一复杂我就会想要躲
有心事我对着狗说

我是木脑壳
你真会概括
我喜欢简单选择
我只对我爱的人和事执着
一根筋到底
就是我的性格

喔，敲敲木脑壳
说你就爱这样笨的我
世界上最最独一无二
聪明人那么多
快乐的有几个
我不要做满身是伤的强者
那才不是我

记得妈妈说过
要光明磊落
我对他承诺
会做到的
对你这样爱着
让你辛苦了
只要你懂得
我还害怕什么

敲敲木脑壳
说你就爱这样真的我
要活就活出自己的本色
脚踏实地的做
总会看到收获
有那一颗钻石不需要打磨
也许就是我

Holiday!

2010-09-13T23:25:00.003+08:00

LuLaLa LuLaLa LuLaLuLaLe~~~~

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~~~~

Dear bloggy~ Im on holiday! You know what? I'm seeeeeeriously happy that Im back! I love KT~ And I never knew that I would miss home this much when I was in Uni.. How was holiday? Holiday was great! Eat-Sleep-Play-Eat-Sleep-Play.. Tell me, how can it not be good?! =P Yeshhh!!! Good food! Comfy bed!! and of course my desktop!!! T_T Something I missed hell loads! <3 People always say, you wouldnt know how good is one thing unless you missed it. Yea.. Its somehow true.. Back to reality, time flies! Gosh.. Its turning Tuesday in less than half an hour! Gosh T_T Can the time not fly but walk?! T_T I'm not prepared to go back to Uni yet.. I need a lil more time to grow, to set up my mind.. En, I'm not prepared.. Or maybe its because I dont wanna face the fact that.. Ahh.. nothing larh.. =) Kiddo~ Better get prepared soon! Play hard! You're not alone kay? Chris Go go Go! =)

Hehe..

2010-08-19T21:27:00.003+08:00

I dont know what to set as the title.. So yea, simply type one.. Hehe.. Recently, Im kinda down as in terms of mood.. Emo season is back I guess.. Hahaha.. Have you ever wonder, thinking you yourself are something, but after a while, you actually realised that you are actually nothing? That is what I am currently feeling.. I dont know how did it came about but it just somehow popped up to me in my mind.. Guess what's the worst thing? I couldnt find a real good way to get out from my emoism.. Last time, there's sing-my-lung-out to release stress, there's being emo to release stress.. But now being emo is not even working.. and sing.. haiz.. where are my kakis?!

I think I did mentioned in my previous post, saying that many had been asking me why I wanted to study law.. The answer was "I dont know, just that I always wanted to do law".. Someone did told me that for the moment, I might be saying that.. but after a period of time, I'll get lost and blur and I'll start wondering, what am I doing in this law school.. Well, I havent encounter that YET, its just that I feel like I never really do anything to acchieve my dreams.. I feel so small, so so so insignificant..

Recent week, I am finding a lil hard in trying to cope with studies.. Maybe I've been playing too much or maybe I didnt put in enough effort larh.. I hope I will soon catch up though... Aaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!! Jia you!!!! T_T Here is the kiddo who is trying to study law.. All the best Kiddo!

Chinese or no chinese?

2010-08-04T18:22:00.007+08:00

I seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeriously wonder if I really do not sound or look like I could speak Chinese.. Hahahhaa.. There are even people who thought that I am not a Chinese~~~ LOL.. Well well.. Its a matter that had been prolonged for quite some times.. LMAO.. Chinese would say that I look like a Malay, a Malay would say that I look like a Bumiputra(as in Sarawak/Sabah people).. So, who do I actually look like? Hahahahaha..

People are often shocked when they get to know that I am actually a Thai-Chinese mixed.. Then they will be like.. "Ohh~~~ No wonder you dont look like a pure Chinese! You looked mixed!" Duh~~ LOL.. Just because of the skin colour.. Seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeriously again.. I dont know why I'm in a rather tanned skin tone, just like my brother, David~~~ XD Therefore, I'm not alone.. LOL.. =P Unlike us, Dickson is rather fair compared to us.. So yea.. XD Okay, back to the question, why are we rather tan? Or why am I rather tan? Hmm.. No idea. LMAO! I definitely dont heritate this from my Mummie. Though my Mummie is a Thai, she is definitely fairer than most Chinese initially.. Hahahaha~~ If I am to say I inherit the skin tone from my Daddie, I was told that my Daddie was rather fair when he was much younger, which eventually mean that he wasnt as tan-skined as he is now.. So, who do I look like? XD Someone from Biology, explaination? =P

Anyway~~~ I do think tan-skinned-people look healthy.. LOL.. I like guys with tanned skin.. I think they look sexy on that -.-" Do I sound weird? LOL.. But, Im really serious about that =P

Reviews on the past 3 weeks

2010-07-27T18:34:00.008+08:00

Phew~ Finally I really got the chance to update my blog for a lil bit(at least)~~!! Ya ya.. I know I know.. It had been rather inactive again.. But what to do? T_T

Anyway.. I've been in the hostel for 3 weeks!! How cool was that?! LOL.. Yea.. So "cool" that I still trying hard to adapt myself to the environment.. Having said of hostel, which means room sharing.. It has already got me up to my nerves =( Sometimes its hard to please everyone who are of different kind of personalities and habits.. As for myself, I seriously miss home a lot.. I miss Mummie, I miss Daddie, and I miss my room hell lot!!

Of course Im not trying to compare both the hostel room and my very own room.. What I'm trying to say is, there's more details on staying in hostel.. One of it will be is to tolerate with roommates.. Hmm.. I wonder if Im not tolerating enough or what =( Another thing will be clashing of time between roommates.. As in, they might come back late, perhaps after you fall asleep about 12++am.. and out of sudden, during your deep sleep, the light is being turned on for almost 2 hours.. Oh well.. I hope this ends soon! Looking forward to a good life!!

I wonder do I sound a lil picky here, but I seriously dont enjoy the hostel sometimes.. Of course, in another way, its very nice cause its very convenient, but, I still prefer not sharing room for better concentration and a better rest time perhaps =)

Remembering that I once cried when I heard my Mummie's voice over the phone.. Having to be a lil too much of "mentally stress" by some "people".. LOL.. It was really good to talk to Mum and Dad, where you know someone is actually encouraging you at all times.. I, really miss Mummie and Daddie.. (Cant wait to go back on Raya!)

Seriously, I've saw loads of "different things" ever since I joined the university.. Things which differ so much from what I thought a Uni life would be like.. Oh well.. Maybe its just another phase of life.. But I do believe for a turning-young-adult-age-hood-university-student should be given choice to do what they want, and not being forced by certain parties? We will see how's things goes and yesh! Hope things turn out alright~~ And yayayaya~~~ Im looking forward to join the CF in UM which is called, hmm.. PKVUM? I've missed it once, hopefully it turns out well this time! <3

Uni life

2010-07-11T03:03:00.002+08:00

Aloha People~~~~ Im here to write about my first week back in Universiti Malaya (UM).. Yes! I am now an official student of MALAYA UNIVERSITY! I didnt get wrong offer!! Its true! LOL (still amazed and shocked by the offer I got.. LOL!）

Anyway, I started my Uni life last week, where by I went for the registration, as well as went through a week of Uni orientation which was real tiring, yet loads of fun.. This is most probably the most fun orientation I had compared to those orientation I went before.. LOL hahahaha..

I'm indeed thankful for everything in UM, for hostel, for friends, for seniors, for faculty and etc~~ Though hostel is not that.. Hmm.. Nice, and its old, but well.. at least its.. stay able still =X In my room, there's another 2 girls, one is Lai Mei, from Cheras itself, a Medical student; while another one is Peggy, a Music School student, from Hulu Langat.. Both pretty nice girls, so Im kinda thankful for that.. Hahahaha..

Orientation was tiring, I mean REAL TIRING! As in we dont even have enough time to shower.. most of the time, if I shower during break, I will not be able to take my meal and vice versa.. and activities was from morning 5.30 till midnight 12.. So, can you guess how hectic it was? LOL.. But, as mentioned, it was rather fun when one really participate in those activities..

Well well, we've been pranked by seniors, I mean real prank.. =.= They "acted" so well that, we couldnt even differentiate its a prank.. -.-" There was this antanogist character whose name was Koober, who was very fierce to us from the very begining, I supposed that everyone was kinda afraid of him =.=" Everytime he sees us, he's like shouting like a barbarian, very rude.. and of course, many talked bad about him.. And guess what?! We only got to know that he's actually one of the seniors who guides us along the orientation week -.-" And he's not as fierce and as bad as he was when he was "acting" as the strict commander =.=" They "protrated" their own drama where they planned and acted it all along =.=“ A lil zadou, nonono! Its a lot =.=" They even acted that they really got into a real fight -.-" I mean it was so real as if it was really happening -.-" (If you noticed, I did used loads of -.-"<<< emoticons; cause I felt real swt =.=") However, Im glad that it was just a prank cause I really felt bad when they "caught into a fight" because of the freshies.. Anyhow, everything was rather cool... hahahhaa

Another weird thing I found out about Uni was those cheers, sing songs, dancing and etc practises.. Hahahaha.. I've never thought that, we'll do this in the Uni -.-" I was like stunt for a moment.. But it was real fun, even though its kinda stupid also larh... hahahhaa.. But even everyone's being silly together, that's when the fun comes in isnt it? Hahahaha...

I'd enjoyed my first Uni orientation week.. Next week will be our faculty orientation week, I hope it will be good! And hopefully its not as bad as people used to mention =X Let's hope for the best!

Uni preparation

2010-06-26T19:30:00.006+08:00

Can you believe that I'll officially be a Uni student by next week?! Oh gosh~~~ I'm so so so so excited yet so so so so nervous... When I was much younger, I used to wonder, how come these big Kor Kor and Jie Jie seems to be so busy when its near to their Uni enrolling period.. Now I begin to realise the busy-ness they had.. LOL.. Its like.. the whole hectic week of running here and there to get those documents approved, doing shopping, go to the bank, and etc etc.. Woah~ Real busy and its a lil tiring.. No no no.. Not a lil, its a lot... =.=" It feels like it was back to the school days.. A lil restless here and there.. But yet, this time, its a lot more different cause Im rather happy doing them =P I'm going to Uni man!!!! Ush! This week alone, I've spent a lot, and yet I'm thankful that, I got an amount of money from the state government and some associations too~ Wakakaka... Its always good to be a Anak Terengganu! Loads of privileges! Ganu Kite~ Wow.. LOLOLOL!!

Talked about entering Uni, my brother got me a brand new laptop! Under the command of my Daddie.. XD Will introduce my new darling to you when I get to kiss it! =P Am looking forward to see "him"~~~~ ♥ Many thanks to my beloved Daddie and Mummie, as well as my ever dearest brother, Mr david Chin for getting it for me~~~~ sayang~~~~

Lastly, I got my BRTC product!!! I've read of the BRTC BB cream, and was told by many that its good, so, I've decided to give it a try, I'll share with you my reviews after a period of time~~ I hope it would be good though.. LOL..

Blemish Recover Balm SPF 28 (BB Cream)

Final week to go! Prepare prepare prepare!! Go go go!! ♥

The grace I dont deserve =)

2010-06-18T16:44:00.009+08:00

Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me.

A song that I will be singing later in the wedding dinner.. This song had been in my mind for days since Auntie Priscilla asked me a favor to present the song.. And I came to my senses that its true to me always especially this very moment..

For those who read in FB, you would know that I got an offer to do Law in UM.. And as many know that, for my results, it is IMPOSSIBLE for me to do law in UM.. When I get my results way back in March, I was like Woah! Thank God! I still remember that I hopped around the house when I see my results.. Many will not think I've got a very good results, in fact, many would give a duh face, but again and again, God grant me favor..

HOWEVER, back to my senses and trying to be realistic, everyone would know that my result is definitely a NO-NO access to UM nor UKM law faculty.. So I'd be a realistic fella, I accept the fact and gave up hope.. But I still apply for them larh when I hand in the UPU application larh~~~ hahahahaha But not giving any hope... So, dont wanna waste much time, I registered for LLB under University of London's external programme with Brickfields Asia College together with a very good friend, Jane.. and guess what? I'm going to start my class next week! BUT!!!!!! hahahahahaha I quitted!! I got an offer from UM for law!!! I MEAN I REALLY GOT AN OFFER FROM UM FOR LAW!!!!! can you believe that?!

This afternoon, I was talking to Javon, and he reminded me that UPU's results' out today, asking to me check.. As mentioned, without putting much hope, and with a light heart, wanting to see what kind of course the GOV would offer me.. but due to the stupid "traffic jam"!!! I was like refreshing the page for N times and more like about an hour =.= I felt dumb =.=" So I texted to check via phone while continuing trying.. THEN, I got the first result,

Anda telah berjaya ditawarkan program pengajian seperti berikut :

KOD PROGRAM : ML00
NAMA PROGRAM : UNDANG-UNDANG
IPTA : UNIVERSITI MALAYA (UM) URL SURAT TAWARAN : http://www.um.edu.my/kemasukan

I was like stunt 0.0! Woah~~~ THIS IS SO WRONG!!!!! Then I tried another site, and the outcome was this :

Tahniah! anda telah berjaya ke program SARJANA MUDA UNDANG-UNDANG Nama : CHIN TEE SHAN
No. Kad Pengenalan : XXXXXXXXXXXX
Alamat : -----------------
Program Pengajian : LEB -SARJANA MUDA UNDANG-UNDANG
Kolej Kediaman : 2-KOLEJ KEDIAMAN KEDUA

Another stunt! 0.0! After a few moments, I came back to my sense! I'M REALLY GOING INTO UM!!!!! wow!!!! WHAT A MIRACLE TO ME!!!! Again I'll say, its totally impossible for me to get into UM with my result! But now its made possible with God's grace... The first thing I shouted, THANK GOD THANK GOD!! THANK YOU FOR SHOWING ME A FAVOR WHICH I DONT DESERVE!! and I went hopping around the house like previously.. LOL...

I count it a miracle, and I count it a God's grace, it is His, its all because of Him ♥

So, UM! Here I come!!!!!!!
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~~~~~~~

Family

2010-05-25T09:39:00.016+08:00

The word "family" came across my mind when I was on the bus in my journey back to Kuala Terengganu yesterday.. How did it came across? Hahaha, good question. The day before, I was in a game,and my brothers were kacau-ing while I talk, so there's a few people who said “和哥哥的感情真好” which means the relationship between my brothers and I are close.. Seriously, I love it when people told me such stuff. It proves that I have a good family where our hearts are bind together. Frankly speaking, I am not a smart fella, I definitely dont own one of the smartest brain in the world, neither am I extremely good in anything, but I always have this ambition of being a lawyer(Yes, I do admit that I played too much and should have put in more effort in achieving my dream in which I didnt =X) . Some people might think I am not qualified for it, or even think that "Aiya, you a.. Study law a.. Cannot one lah.. You sure you want to study law a?" But you know what my parents told me? They said, "Go for the things that you want, its your life". My brothers too never pull me down but always encourage me to work hard for Uni.. I feel like I'm the most blessed person when I'm around them.. With them, I can always move on boldly.. Never to fear, nothing to be afraid of.. That is my family =D

Not just these, my relatives, especially my Grandma(s), my uncles and aunties, together with muh cousins, I do heart them loads.. Heart them much more than I personally known, maybe some of them we dont have much topics, or even having some communication breakdown(?!?! =X) but we're still in a family isnt it? hahahaha.. Our family gathered together once in a while, for father's side, we gather more often cause mum's side is a lil far in count of distance.. So yeah.. Therefore, we're pretty close to each other on my Dad's side of family. Needless to say, Bonnie and Nelson are definitely my closest relatives of all, I mean, we played together, grew up together, even bathed together! Woah! LOL Aww, *hearts*.

I dont know how ya all define family. But I personally define it as a body that build one another up, encourage one another, be there for one another, love unconditionally, and hearts joint as one..

As we grow up, we are pampered by our uncles and aunties.. I'd like to start with Uncle Alex.. I could still remmeber that when we were young, during CNY, we would gathered together and play cards, and we never understand how come Uncle Alex always got good cards and win all the time.. Until a few years later that we found out that he actually cheated us -.-" And he would always tell us during the new year eve that whoever finds him first will get the biggest Ang Pao of all.. LOLOLOL!!! So everyone will be finding him everywhere, and guess what? He stayed overnight in my grandpa's far-away-house... (Cheh! No wonder no one found him larh!) hahahhaa... Those days were fun.. Not forgetting my late Uncle Michael who would always ask me to diet LOLOLOL!!! I could also recall that I once followed him to sell car paints by road for one whole day and we had a very nice and long conversation throughout the journey.. And also the bread that he made! Sugar-buttered-bread! NICE!!!!! *drools* Also Auntie Soy Choo who would always ask us to study hard.. hahahahaha and lastly, Auntie Lee Choo who always settle the club's "scholarship" for us and tell us about the singing compy around town... XD

Millions of thoughts actually came into my mind this few months, especially recent weeks.. Questions like how should a family looks like.. What should a family do for each other and such of stuff.. Please keep in mind that I am not talking about the small family where it only includes parents and siblings. I'm also talking about the relatives.. Close relatives =) As mentioned earlier in the beginning of this post, I think a family should help one another, love unconditionally, back one another up.. There's so many cases that relationships within family members breaks because of worldly elements like fame, money etc.. I personally dont see these things equivalent to family relation.. Please dont get me wrong, I am not saying that money is not important. Of course it is, but if its just because of these earthly outcomes that we tends to lose our loved ones.. Its definitely not worth the price.. I believe there are also many people who do not agree with my statement. But these are merely my thoughts, so, kindly pardon me if anything that I mentioned goes against yours.

This is how I see things in a family, everyone lives equally good, no one is to live below the limit as in all the needs are to be covered, whether its education, or even basic needs.. As a family, our mind should always have one another in mind, be it might cost us a lot of things. As mentioned earlier, we are suppose to build one another up, help one another.. Oh please! I am not saying that we are to spoon feed everything, but we can give conditionally. As one family, dont we want to see our loved ones also enjoy good life? I want! I pray that every single one of you will be blessed by the Lord and we'll move on as one, needless to worry about things, with love, compassion and God, I believe all things are possible =D

To my dearest family members,

I heart ya all much more than anything else, I might not be able to help much when you needed things, but I'll do whatever I can to help. And I'm pretty sure my shoulder will be pretty comfortable if you need one to cry on.. Always bare in mind, keep focusing on God, one who loves God, would know how to love one another better =)

With love,
Christina Chin ♥

Thailand Trip

2010-04-21T10:07:00.028+08:00

YUUUUUHOOOOOOO~~~

Im back people! I AM BACK!!!!! Anyone miss me? Yeah.. I know you miss me.. Dont kckc can or not?! Muahahahaha~~ Anyway~~ I'm finally back from Thailand after 12 days of leaving Malaysia~~~ Seriously, I love Malaysia more now~~~ I mean more to the weather.. Though its pretty hot still, but at least its less hot that Thailand, no matter its Bangkok, ChiangRai or Phayao~~ Phew~~ Gosh.. You couldnt imagine how hot was it there in Thailand.. Give you a picture about it, its like you took shower, in the same bathroom, not yet stepped out of it, trying to dress yourself, you'll find yourself already sweating... =.=" Yea~~!! IT IS THAT HOT! and I aint hyperbola-ing =.="

But anyhow~~~~ I had real great fun and I'd love to rate it 9 out of 10... What so fun about it? LOLOLOLOL.. Patience my child~~ Why sucha hurry.. Ish Ish Ish~~ Just give you a glimpse about my Thailand trip schedule first hahahaha XD

8th
Flew from KL to Bangkok; stayed one night
9th
Took bus from Bangkok to Phayao(reached 10th)

10th
Ran around the village and travelled down to ChiangRai in the evening to pick up David, Dickson and Ah mei from the ChiangRai airport; as well as visited the ChiangRai night market <3

11th - 12th
Visited the border's market place; Myanmar + golden triangle + Opium muzium

13th
Water fight around Chiangrai =P

14th
Journey back to Phayao; Joined them in their festival celebration

15th
Water fight war around Phayao XD

16th
Blessings from the elderly; Travel back to Bangkok

17th
Elephant and crocodile park; boat riding across the river

18th
Floating market; Chatuchak weekend market

19th
Mall

20th
Final Shopping; fly back to KL

What I would say about this trip is IT WAS FUN! Much more fun that the time I went for Loy Kra Tong festival.. hahaha... Basically, most of the days in this particular trip are water-related due to the Songkran Festival which also known as the Water Splashing Festival.. What they eventually did was.. Splash water on anyone, any where, any time.. LOLOLOL!!! And guess what?! Some of them literally use cold water.. I MEAN ICE WATER! But it was real fun though it was real chillin' and totally wet.. But.. I had real great fun splashing others as well as being splashed =P

Another highlight would be the goods in Thailand.. I was like Wow! "Mummie! Its cheap! Its cheap!" Ended up buying loads of stuff home LOLOLOL!!! When I flew from KL to BANGKOK on the 8th, My luggage only weighted around 9kg.. Guess how much it weighted when I flew back to KL from Bangkok? It was 18kg! LOLOL... Can guess how many things I've bought.. =X I mean the things in Thailand are REAL CHEAP! Oh gosh... Next time I would bring an empty luggage there T_T and come back with a full luggage! =P

Besides, I was indeed glad that we got the chance to meet up some real long relatives.. For muh cousins, Aunties, Uncles and those who used to watch us grow up years ago.. Its truly amazing how fast time had passed.. Now everyone has grown up... Oh yea! There was this two particular cousin that I would love to talk about =.=" The two sisters, Fim and Foy.. I mean they are like.. Woah.... NOISY =.=" Now I know why I dont like kids that much.. First, they are a lil too noisy, secondly, I dont really know how to relate to kids.. LOLOLOL!!! Well well~ Though I dont really like kids, (I am not saying that I hate kids =.=) but this two fellas are rather cute larh... Heart them loads <3.. kids Not forgetting my adorable nice PoChin! Aww.. I love babies! But I dont like kids?! LOLOL.. I mean noisy kids =.=

I'd love to continue the post with foods! Sad to say, the trip was rather related to pork, beef and salted fish! (To me larh =P) If you dont take pork, beef or vegetarian, you can eventually skip this part.. XD I MISS THAILAND PORK!!!! How on earth can their pork taste nicer than ours?! T_T Now I'm hungry =( I miss the food in Thailand =( This is how I prove to you that the food were nice.. I've grown like 5kgs in like two weeks? =.=" Okay.. okay! DONT STARE AT ME THAT WAY! I'm working out on my diet T_T

Another thing that I find it interesting in this trip was, we met airline hostess But, it was indeed my first time to see we have a hostess in bus how cool is that?! hahahahaha XD So, basically, we've met all air, land and water hostesses in this particular trip =P

And yessshhhh~~~ We crossed over to Myanmar from the Golden Triangle meetpoint... This was also my first time to casino =.=" and another thing I found it interesting was, the signboards are in Chinese! LOLOLOL... I never knew that =.="

I'd love to sum up that this trip was real fun! For those who have a lil confidence in my taste, Thailand would be a real good place to visit ^^ I know Bonnie Chin will be real interested =P So next time yeah Ms Bonnie =P

For more pictures, kindly visit my facebook, I'll upload more from my camera when I get back to Kuala Terengganu ^^

Harassment

2010-04-08T05:05:00.010+08:00

Yea! Its 5.06 now and I am still awake! LOL... just before i leave for Bangkok, I'd like to blog about this stalker that buzzed me this week.. I wouldnt talk much.. I'll only show you my phone's conversation print screens... Then you can tell me what you think by leaving comments... But its in Malay, so I believe the KT-ians would understand better...

But before that, just give you a picture on how these things happened.. There was this particular day, someone kept on miss calling me, till i was so fed up that I sent a sms to ask who is that fella... then from the conversation, I got to know that fella got my number from the school, claiming that my photostatted cert is with him and bla bla bla.... so that's the case... let's take a look at the print screens then =)

Ps: the blue coloured are mine, while the reds' that fella... This is one good thing about iPhone... its clearly stated =P

What says you？

I do count that a mistake by the school for causing me being disturbed by this particular malay kid.. Since its all happened from the moment he got my number from the school.. So yea.. Who should be responsible for this? This is not the first time I got disturbed in this way, in fact I got disturbed by my very own classmates few years back with his thinking of "chinese are open minded" that's why it should OKAY to disturb chinese in a sexual manner either verbally or actions.. Well, I would just say I'm conservative then and yea, I believe you hit the wrong target and you'll be "famous" for your deed =) I dropped that idea of exposing that guy last 2 years, but not this time =)

If he continues when I got back from my Thailand trip, I'll too continue the game with him, see who's gonna pay for it more =D

kiddish, rubbish..

2010-04-03T08:23:00.008+08:00

Good morning~ Ah well.. Its like 8.24 am right now and yea I havent been sleeping the whole night and why so? cause I will be boarding the bus in a while, so in order for me to sleep tight along the bus journey, I dont sleep throughout the night.. LOL.. What was I doing? I was reading my novel while surfing the net.. And yea, never left out the Meetoto part.. So, I was basically on Meetoto the whole night.. Its about3++ am, and we sort of went into one section of this particular game and we met a bunch of people, whom I would like to call them Kiddos, were quarreling.. Over what? Some of you might ask. They argue over who's greater... The group were separated into two.. One was the Malaysian gamers, while the other was the Singaporeans.... First and foremost, I do really think that they have shallow minds while they tease each other by generalizing the whole community based on merely their thoughts.. (I wonder do I sounds like those people who's trying to stir up conflict between both the country; but anyway, I'm just sharing from what I saw and heard; nothing other than that =))

These are some of the words that came out from their mouth（please, I aint making this up, I did recorded parts the conversation =)) : -

1. Malaysia is big so what? All the people are not educated, only know how to speak chinese... Malaysians are useless one larh.. Only work to serve Singaporeans. (This is obviously said by the Singaporeans)
2. Then the "Malaysian party" strikes them back by using the Namewee song which insults the Singaporean.. then they did mentioned something like each Malaysian spit, will drown the whole Singapore -.-"
3. Malaysians, all eat sand and mud one... I feel pity for ya all.. Useless..Then he insulted Malaysian's poor English by saying, your English is poor and still trying to speak it, improve your English larh. Then can earn more money.. Need not earns by sweeping the floor everyday, earn 1 bucks, 50 cents or 25 cents per hour, and he mentioned, if USD is earned, the speaker himself will sell off the whole family -.-" You can earn Rm 200 per month, I'd feel grateful for you dy.

Ahh... Something like that larh... Seriously, I aint standing by any of the 2 parties, but I felt pathetic for those who got involved in the quarreling.. By stepping others down really does exalts yourself? Oh please! Grow up kids! The most pathetic thing isnt the bad side of both the country, but of the existence of YOU kind of people! Seriously, how can you judge a country which you're not familiar with it? How much do you know about that particular country? Speaking words that "dont" go through the brain are implicating your foolishness =) As mentioned earlier on, Im not on the Malaysian's side nor the Singaporean's, cause both sides are wrong, but anyhow.. I was a lil pissed off hearing those words made by kids who's trying to act like a grown up... In other words, making such statements doesnt helps in glorifying your own country, but you're bring shame to your country.. At least you didnt impressed me on that.. Yea.. you might be smart in some sense.. rich too..(maybe?) But your ignorance and arrogance proves that you're like a man with brain but never make full use of it.. You know whats one of the most pathetic thingy in the world? Its not someone who's without brain, but its someone who has brain but never uses it =) Think about it kiddos, its time to grow up.. ^^

啦啦の亂亂說

2010-03-27T05:27:00.009+08:00

半夜睡不著覺，把心情哼成歌~~~
只好到blogspot找另一個夢境~~~

對拉~ 好久沒來亂打字。。可能有人會說 “怎麼又是華語篇？！你不是很少打華語post的嗎？ki hiao哦？” 對咯，就是ki hiao了。。哈哈。。在這個打了很多東西，有關於心情的，有關與感想的，甚至也有不關於我的東西。。至於華語篇嘛，第一，我打華語是因為不想一些人知道我的心情，再不然就是我想要讓那個我想他讀的人可以明白我想要講的東西。。因為hoh，看我部落格的人，一半不會華語，一半不太會英文，所以還真的不知道怎麼做好。。。哈哈哈。。Anyway，很複雜吧。。。至於這次爲什麽會選擇打華語呢。。不太清楚，就想到要打。。哈哈。。

最近啊，在家裡過得很頹廢 “早”睡“遲”醒的。。簡直就像人家所所謂的敗家女，只會吃喝玩樂。。對！我就是過著這樣的生活 -。- 其實我也蠻無奈的。。我已經到一個境界，不知道自己可以做什麼了。。呆在丁加奴，沒地方去，沒東西做，沒人陪。。還真是很可憐。。多希望明天就可以上大學開課。。由於本大小姐太悶的關係，最近也想了很多東西。。也回想了很多往事。。同時，也覺得自己長大了很多。想東西的方式，做事情的能力，無論是對事對人，都和以前不一樣了。。以前，總覺得自己很小，想要像大人那樣，可以為所欲為的，很自在的做自己想做的東西；所以都會一直希望自己趕快長大。。現在，快轉20了。。卻突然不想長大了。。就覺得自己越大越無力，越大越能感覺得到壓力的純在。。有時候，真的不知道該怎麼做，但是又不想麻煩人家的時候，或者我應該說是我自己愛岑強，不希望人家看到我脆弱的那一面。。其實還真的蠻辛苦的。。有很多話，不知道要和誰說，甚至連自己最好的朋友也不知道要怎麼開口說。。有時候自己發呆的時候想： “只有我一個人那麼奇怪罷了嗎？” 其實hoh，你們也會不會像我一樣，有很多話，但又不知道要怎麼說或不知道要和誰說啊？我和你們說哦。。我心情不好的時候會自言自語的，再不然就是亂打字發洩一下心情。。因為，這樣，自己就不會把所有的事情憋在心裡。。雖然只是自己看到自己打的字。。但至少，也是發洩的一種方式。。

從小到大，我的人就很奇怪，心情變動很大。。小時候是滿開朗的，到了中學時代卻很emo型，到現在就是一半emo，一半開朗。。那就要看心情了。（ps:我的心情起伏性很大哦！）可能這一秒我心情很好，下一秒就變了另外一個人。。有人會覺得我很驕傲，有人會覺得我很好玩。。我到底是怎樣的人？哈哈哈，我自己也不知道。。話說回來，要瞭解一個人不容易，要瞭解自己更是不簡單。。我就是不瞭解自己的那一種人。。好想要永遠當個小孩喲~~沒事情煩，只有人家幫你煩。。小時候，受傷的時候，有人會為你心疼，失落，有人會來安慰你。。但是現在呢，遇到困難卻要自己學會怎樣去面對。。可笑的是，自己死硬撐，都不知道為了什麼鬼東西。。哈哈

這幾天丫，有好多朋友都在煩大學的事丫，感情的事丫。。我兩個都不煩，因為，已經sien ham了 -。- 說道感情事，我媽媽竟然和我說：“珊，20歲了hoh，要上大學了hoh，可以找個人來拍拖了。。。” 咩哦？！？！？！怕我嫁不出咩？！還每次說我嫁不出的啦，現在又說我可以去找男朋友了。。咩意思哦？？=X 我的夢想還可真大呢！想嫁的人，最佳理想為李嘉誠~~~~~の兒子；但是啊，我家老爸阿渣說嫁兒子家産沒嫁老爸多；並且老爸也老kok kok了，應該沒幾年 LOL！！所以我覺得這個建議不錯，可以考慮 LOL！！！（喂。。啦啦！啦啦！你有沒有心儀的對象jek？！）部落格你DIMA! Diam diam啦！那麼38搞屁啊？！

沒煩惱自己找煩惱的人！殺了我吧！好啦。。我開始語無倫次了 -。- 早上6.34分了，又到啦啦睡覺的時間了。。偶冬眠去~~~ RIP =D

米多多

2010-03-09T23:22:00.007+08:00

哇~~ 33打華語部落篇哇！！好難得！LOL 其實吼，打華語字還蠻爽的咯，因為hoh，華人嘛用華語就可以比較38一點 LOL 說道米多多，我也還真的玩了好久。。話說回來，也超過一年半了吧！想當初，是我的二哥介紹我的，他說，“你應該會很喜歡這個遊戲的咯” 當時的我其實沒什麼興趣，就覺得無聊的時候才登入玩玩下咯。。但是過了不久，click到幾個朋友，之後就開始玩了好久，甚至於著迷 -。- 還記得那時可以玩到天亮，然後隔天直接去上課那樣子0.0！還蠻變態的。。最初的朋友有幾個。。但是印象比較深刻的是高懿， Funkystle(阿Yew)，Nara,小澈,Pmleong，龍霸天他們。。那時候的我還蠻開心的。。認識了一些很好很好的朋友，就算是有些很久沒上了。但是msn或電話上也聊得很來。。之後呢，就認識了小雨，也不經意的認識到黑黑，阿wet,小鬼。。之後我們幾個，加買高懿就每次一起玩，一起顛。。其中，我們4個也進了同樣的家族，也就是 *.♥愛情♂♀咖啡♪♬廳♥.*。。

就在這期間之前，也認識了冰冰，then不經意的link我們到米蘭，老大他們整家housemate。。之後我們的朋友圈子也開始擴大了。。大家都在同一個家族內，玩得很開心，原本小小的家族，少少的族員，那時的我們感情是那麼的好，是那麼的開心。。那時啊，每次一起玩的人還真多下 -_-" 老大jetson，米蘭，黑黑，jenny，oreo，maksim，angugu，小雨，單純的小綿羊 - 香草，怪怪，orangeqiqi，shanshan56，五條蕉，a born。。還有好多好多哦！慢慢的，家族越來越多人，家族也越來越出名，每次都亂搞活動，有奇奇怪怪的節目，也更加拉近我們的關係。其中，我們也有過家族聚會，還可真開心的呢！好想再約她們出去玩也~~ 說的真是還有點想念他們。。

大概一年之後，大家也開始忙者工作，念書了，之前的，很多也開始少上線。。慢慢地，又認識到了另外一半朋友，就阿冰，不爛凳子，晶晶，云云他們。。天丫！想當初我們還真的幾顛下。。加上黑黑，我們還一起唱客家歌。。“阿婆買鹹菜”，“泥水妹”之類的。。哈哈哈哈，但是之後也因為一點事情，大家也鬧得有點不開心。。哈哈，但那些已經不重要啦！過去了嘛。。大家還是好朋友啊。。LOL 也在這班朋友離去之後，慢慢地就開始參我們家寶貝露迪玩。。其中也和N年前的好友人渣也一起玩了，還有 haoyi啊。。小思啊，大樹伯啊，當然還有我最佳好朋友黑黑。。我們還果真玩得很開，hiao的，感性的，可愛的。。樣樣齊全。。很厲害下。。哈哈哈哈。。

說真的，其實米多多沒什麼特徵。。更不用說他是一個很好玩的遊戲，米多多好玩，純粹只是因為聚在一起的朋友很好玩，給了米多多那個意義，其中也帶給我好多好多的快樂。。玩了一年半多，認識到的朋友還真多啊。。哈哈。。多到我自己也打不完吧。。同時也在現實生活中見過幾位感情蠻好的米多多好友，其中不可以少了gilson，我家的鬼-sukiyi，38王后-JK，白白，也忘不了我家可愛的小弟弟接吻兒。。還有幾個米多多紅人，就好像subie啊，丘子靜啊，melvin老伯啊，esio，見鬼，阿心，我的路，阿瑞，等帥哥美女們。。我還果真list不完，因為實在真的太多了 -。- 當然，也有沒有meet過的好友們兒，珊珊啦啦不是不記得你們啦，只是名字真的太多了，懶惰打了啦！！T_T 但是我真的好珍惜你們喲~ 你們帶給我很多很多的快樂，這一年多的時間，雖然自己像個宅女，但是我是真的很開心 =)謝謝你們啦~~珊珊啦啦么么你們大大力！嗯嘛！❤

Ridiculous

2010-03-07T15:14:00.007+08:00

Today I went to school to get some signatures for the photocopied results and all.. So there after I got the signature of the teacher, I was told to go to the main office to get the cop.. Well well, so did I went.. Guess what was the most ridiculous thingy?! The fella asked me, "why you wear like this to school?" Hello~~~?! I was wearing a pair of knee-level-jeans and a proper blouse okay... =.= What's wrong with that?! -_-" Is a pair of knee-level-jeans and blouse considered too much? It was rather a =.= statement.. Sorry to say that, if I wasnt being repectful, I would just wear my singlet and go there.. I need not to change clothes.. Troublesome.. What a statement.. Seriously, if you want people to respect you, you need to learn how to respect people too.. I put on a proper clothing and went, I dont think I deserve such criticism.. Its not that because you behave like so that you want everyone to dress up or behave like you! Oh well... What a One-Malaysia-mind-set we have in the school... Oh Wow! Waaaaaaaa~ So cool~~! =.= Oh please, dont get me wrong, I wasnt got pissed of just because of these, but some other words too.. So yea.. Duh~ I'm glad that I'm out of school and I dont need to go back again =.= I love my teachers, I love my formates Other than that, there's nothing else that I like about the school =)

Besides, I am totally pissed of by the school, for being irresponsible against their mistakes.. First, my KK marks was wrongly printed and inserted by the teacher, guess what they said? "We've sent it to the Kementerian, there's no way for us to change anymore.." I was like what?! -.- I eventually got 0 for my Badan Uniform, Yea, 0!! If I knew this, I wouldnt even join the school camp which pissed me off last year! Jiak sai! =.= Another thing is the highschool cert.. They too wrongly printed, so they took it back to re-print it.. So well yeah, I went to school and I was told that its done and can grab it from the office.. And guess what they said? "Orang yang in charge sijil tak datang hari ni, datang balik ye.." Hahahhaa... Cluster school, such great efficiency! I'm in love with it <3 =.= How if the people who came a long way to get the cert? You're just wasting their time.. Sad to say, these kind of attitudes not only brings shame to the school but also show bad example to the younger generation.. I seriously think the school need some changes =)

It was rather a ridiculous day..

Thanksgiving

2010-03-07T12:41:00.005+08:00

Havent been updating for quite sometime.. Its because, I dont find the "feel" in writing it hahahaha... Anyway, I'd like to kick off the post with a word of thanksgiving, of what? OH yea, Good question.. =P Of the STPM result I got recently.. I'd love to thank God for everything, cause I believe God had been gracious to me throughout my examination weeks.. Though my result might not be real good in some people's eyes, but atleast, I, myself am thankful for it.. Hahahaha.. For those you didnt know, I got 3.33 for my CGPA.. Many asked me, "why so many 3s?! Is it because my name has a 珊(shan)?" LOL.. Oh well.. Its also possible... =P Anyhow, all in all, I give Him thanks and praises =)

Another thing I want to add into this post is about the goals I set for 2009.. If you ever noticed the right hand side of my blog, there's a column that writes : -

♥ღ♥ Goals For 2009 ♥ღ♥

* •● Love God more
* •● Study everyday for STPM
* •● Watch Heroes every week! Its now back to me! =P
* •● Score good results
* •● Buy New Shoe
* •● Buy Twilight series
* •● Finish all the 4 books in Twilight series
* •● Finish STPM and cabut!

Wonder if any one of you ever noticed that.. Yea, I am going to talk about that in this post lolz... Okay.. We'll go one by one from the list, so, we/ll begin from the bottom LOL...

* •● Finish STPM and cabut!
Obviously, I'm done! And I cabut-ed hahahahhaa! Although I'm now I'm back but I'm much more happier LOL~

* •● Finish all the 4 books in Twilight series
LOL, not yet finished, half way through the 3rd book.. LOL! Can see how slow my progression is LOL...

* •● Buy Twilight series
Duh~ I got it for more than a year by now! =P

* •● Buy New Shoe
Yea I did! In fact I bought 2! =P *shyshy*

* •● Score good results
Hmmmm... the post above tells it all... XD

* •● Watch Heroes every week! Its now back to me! =P
Hmm.. Nope, I didnt, cause of exam.. LOL... But I did catch up after exams =P Still nice!!!! T_T

* •● Study everyday for STPM
Obviously I didnt.. LOL... The last 1 month I did larh, but still a lil gaming here and there.. So yeah... =X

* •● Love God more
Seriously, I dont know how to answer this =) I wouldnt say I didnt, neither will I say I did... In fact, it was a messed up spiritual life throughout my form 6.. But I would say it is a interesting year for me, between God and I =)

That's all for this post~ Will be updating the goals for 2010 soon! =P

NERVOUS!!

2010-02-25T00:10:00.002+08:00

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!

How do I overcome my nervousness?!
I am now... So so so so nervous!
I feel like shouting, screaming perhaps..
But cant larh.. (Aboh will get complaint =X)
This is my first time being soooooo nervous over results..
Somebody please tell me HOW do I calm myself T_T
I can feel my heartbeats fast,
I drank 3 cans of softdrinks...
Aaa.. Its all my synptoms of being nervous and stress..
What larh?!?!?! T_T
Somebody help!!!!!!!!!!

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

January 2010

2010-02-10T16:45:00.020+08:00

As promised, this is the post for January.. =P Before I begin anything, I really wanted to greet everyone of you a Blessed New Year! Even though its kinda late to greet so, but, hahahaha.. at least I greet right? =P For the past whole month, my blog was rather dead, I was totally inactive online, many had been asking me, "Eh Chris/San San.. Where had you been?" Oh dear~~ I know you all miss me~~~ *touched* =P For your information, I joined a mission programme under the English Speaking Presbyterian.. What's mission programme? I bet some of you might be asking.. For those who are Christian, they will know.. But anyhow, I'll give a brief explanation on what is it about.. Hahaha.. Mission.. Hmm... I would say that its like the 007 thingy.. LOL.. We were given a task to go to somewhere, and to do something.. The thing different about mission is that, we intend to serve people not just for the sake of helping people who are in need, but also to show love to those who need as well as share the love of God that had been so gracious to us all these while =)
So yah, this particular programme that I joined is called Youth Mission Initiative(YMI).. This time is the second time I joined this programme.. Remembering last two years I was sent to the Orang Asli village in Ongkel, Hulu Langat.. Click here to read about the last trip =)

As before, we had a week of training in Kluang.. Choon Khai and I were the last to reach there.. It was funny beacuse I always reach Kluang on odd time LOL! Last time I reached there by 5/ something in the morning, this time I reach there 1+ during midnight.. I bet Jit must be crazy about the time I reach Kluang everytime I go =P This year's training were a lil different from the previous ones.. This tme, we spent more time together as a team, staying in OASIS.. Which mean we have more time to spend together to build relationship and all, WHICH I think its a pretty good thing XD We did things like balloon sculpturing, distributing food(I love Kluang Project, Habitutes, Personality lesson, lesson on Why Mission?, taking over Youth Fellowship, children ministry as well as cleaning the old folks' home =) Time passes pretty fast seriously.. A week later, we were paired up and sent to different places.. A team to Vietnam/Cambodia, Sentul, Melaka, Port Dickson, JB, Orang Asli and as for my team, we were sent to Teluk Intan..
What?! Teluk Intan?! Yeah.. Teluk Intan, somewhere I never went before and somewhere very far away from my house -_-“ There were 3 of us in the team, Andrinna, Jasmine and myself.. We took bus by our own, from Kluang to Teluk Intan by which we transited in KL in between.. Seriously, I have no feel at all being sent there.. But I never really expected myself to be sent there.. Hahahaha.. Well, well... I'm really grateful that I was sent there.. Even though at first I really didnt thought that its like a mission, but, I started to feel the mission after a week.. I shall keep this to later =P Lemme give you a slight picture of where we went. =) We went to a school named Bethany Home.
This school is really different from the normal school that we went. This school is a school for the epileptics and physically challenged kids. At first, before I went there, I was thinking by myself, "Cham larh! I'm not even a kid-person, what more a special kids" -_-" But anyway, I still went.. =P The first week, it was pretty relaxing I would said =) I mean in terms of living conditions and all.. What we basically did in Bethany Home were teaching and spending time with the kids..
Remember that I said earlier that I dont feel as if its a mission at first? I realised this was pretty wrong after a week there.. the first week was rather routinely. devotion, teach, self programme.. Until the first Friday, it was the time when I literally broke down and wanted to go home so much -_-" Oh yea~ I cried -.- I didnt even cried the last time, but I cried this time =.= Dealing with special kids needs loads of patience.. I, Ms Christina, -.- Dont really have such patience..
There was this kid that I took care of, named Zhang Kooi. What I did with him everyday was throwing rubber balls and picked them up... Everyday without missed, at least an hour under the sun, picking balls.. Till that very Friday, He was in pretty good mood I think...Hahahaha.. So, he turned out to be "rebellious", he was like throwing things all over again and again, I think we picked balls for more than 2 hours that day? -.-" Trust me, if its a normal kid, I would have slapped him -_-" Very coincidentally, when I was so stressed, and need someone to cry on, my Daddie called.. I missed home so much, I wanted to go home so much, for that very moment, I was like literally.. Stressed! -.- I told Daddie what I did and how I feel, but it was pretty comforting to hear from Daddie, saying, "You shouldnt feel stress when you're doing God's work, Always remember why you are there in that very place. You are there to serve. Stress shouldnt be something that be in you, stress is from the devil.." When I hear these, it litereally strucked me. I was speechless for a moment. My Daddie continues "You should see things from God's perspectives and not on yours alone.. Then you will learn what God's trying to show you through all these things" I took hold on those words, I went on, but with a much enlightened heart =)

True enough, after that day, I realised a lot of things.. Things that I dont see in the past week, things that I didnt expected to learn.. Have you ever thank God for who are you? Have you ever thank God for you can feel things? Have you ever thank God that you are able to think? Have you ever thank God for your parents? Do you know? There are so many people outside there who are less blessed than we are, but we never be contented enough for the things we have, we often take it for granted isnt it? Yes? No?

There was this kid that we met, who is unable to control in feelings and couldnt communicate.. Everytime he didnt know how to express himself, he ended up hitting himself.. There were bruises all over his face, scars, swollen, reddish bruises.. That moment, I realised how blessed am I, being able to control my actions and thoughts, for being able to express myself well..

Another thing I learnt was to give unconditionally.. There was these great people that we met in Bethany Home and am serving there.. In Bethany Home, they dont have high pay, dont have high recognition, no status but they served wholeheartedly. There was this woman, she is a pastor, but she only works in the kitchen, cooking and preparing meals for the workers and kids every noon time.. I mean, she can do greater things than this.. Hiding in the kitchen, no one would even notice her existence! But she served so quietly, just to bless others.. Another great lady that we met was Ms Chandra.. She had been serving in Bethany Home for more than 30 years.. We had a lil talk with her over the dinner during our stay in Teluk Intan. One thing she shared amazes me, she said, "the kids are beautiful, though they might not understand, but for sure, God loves them and for sure they will go back to God one day.." Yup! I agree with her, the kids in Bethany Home are really beautiful, they are so naive, though at first I feel stressed, but later on I enjoy they company, their existence.. Being among them makes me feel fearless, because I dont have to restrain myself from anything, dont have to scare if they are plotting something to harm me, dont have to think what I should say to them.. I began to love Bethany Home and the people in there =)

In one particular day, Mr Jaya Singh, the director of Bethany Home, wanted to see the 3 of us and another volunteer named Johnathan.. The 4 of us were blurred, wondering why he wanted to see us, so, we went there, in his office he gave us a metal cross each, ask us to find out where it might come from. So the 4 of us was like wondering what is it and so, so we "cheated" by asking Ms Chandra.. =P She told us a lil about that very thing, it was made from bullet.. and after an hour, we went back to My Jaya, he told us the story behind the crossed on our hands.. It was made by bullets and they are from Africa, picked up by German missionaries and made into these crosses to distributed to all over the world so that whenever people look at them, people will pray about it.. He said that these bullets are real bullets shot by kids who are kidnapped by the army from their homes.. These kids were trained how to equip guns and how to fire guns, when they grow up, they were brought back to their home and asked to shoot their parents.. If they dont do as requested, both them and their parents will be shot dead.. It was like.. What?! At times we take parents from granted, if I were to be put in this situation, I think I will be in trauma.. -_-' So, APPRECIATE YOUR PARENTS! They will not be with your forever, they might just go off anytime.. We will never know.. =)
The day before we leave Bethany Home, Mr Jaya wanted to see the 3 of us again.. He asked us these questions. "Do you think God made a mistake when he created these kids?" He continues saying, these kids are beautiful in God's eyes, they deserves much more than these and he asked us "If one day your children are like this, how would you feel?" Actually, I did thought of this question before.. hahaha.. Mr Jaya said, many mums had come to him and cry about their stress and frustration over these kids, its never easy to be mum to these kids, but all Bethany Home can do is to help them as much as possible..

15 days later, we got back to Kluang and did our debriefing as well as listen to various stories of different people in different places. I believe God had indeed done something special in the heart of His children through YMI 2010!

Through out my trip, I learnt a lot.. Much more than what I expected, I sort of fall in love with my task there.. I will go back one day, I thank God for the time and things that He showed me, I grew a lil again.. =)

As always, pictures time! =P

Ms Chandra

Mr Jaya Singh

Mr Koh

My Sweet Lady Jee Ing ♥

My Teddy Bear - Zhang Kooi ♥
Gunung Lambak - Mountain Climbing =X

LAST BUT NOT LEAST!
Thanks Tien for being perasan to set your picture as my wall paper =P

YMI 2010 =D

Quick Update

2010-02-09T15:25:00.005+08:00

Aloha people! Yeah.. I'm finally back home..! Actually, I came back for almost a week already, but due to some family things, it was rather busy, so now I'm going to do a proper update.. =P But not on what I did in the whole January cause I'm still preparing the stuff for that post =P So yah.. It should be up the latest by tomorrow.. So, be patient yah... Wakakakaka...

Anyway, first and foremost! I cut my hair! Yea!! LOL.. And I straightened it.. (Again?!) LOL.. Yes again.. Cause its rather short and spoilt so, hahaha.. no choice.. Not bad larh the hair cut.. Still that leng lui as before.. =P Actually, at first I didnt plan to come back to KT this early, but because I wanted to do something to this "lion head", that's why I came back earlier.. But who knows.. Yah.. it turned out to be, I came back for funeral.. =) But anyway, we have to keep moving on right? XD Is just that, I wonder how this year's Chinese New Year would be like.. =)

Hahahaha.. And yea.. This morning I went to school to take my MUET results.. Remember the last time I took once? This is my second time.. -_-" hahahaha and guess what?! I got the same band as last time, and yea! Same marks too! One more mark to the next band! Aww =.= I was rather surprised that I could get this mark actually, my writting screwed everything up.. I only got 49 compared to the last time I got 79? LOL I dont know what happened larh.. -_-" hahaha most probably I didnt score in the report cause I dont know how to do at all.. The question's just too weird hahaha XD But anyhow, I really thank God cause I'm glad that I got 41/45 for listening and speaking.. Hahahaha.. And thank God for the result though I still couldnt get Band 5 as I wanted.. XD

That's all for now I guess! Stay tune to the next post! I'm gonna talk about what I did for the whole one month! XD LOL.. See you soon =P

Recently..

2010-02-07T09:25:00.006+08:00

There's lots of things that happened recently.. One of them was as posted in the previous post, my uncle passed away.. So I bet everyone in the family had been quite restless recently.. Including myself..

Seriously, when the news first struck me, I was totally stunt.. I was like... "How could this happen?!" Its kinda shocking.. and it is the first ever funeral in my family(to me) since I werent even born when Grandpa passed away. Now I can feel how it feels.. When something just loses over the night.. Sometime in between the funeral and burial, my brother asked me, saying, "the first death had took place in your papa's generation.. Your papa might just be the next one.. Are you prepared?" I said I dont know.. But now I know that I'm not yet prepared.. Not yet to accept another strike.. And my brother said, "Everyone's have to go through these, its just that our cousins experienced this much earlier than us.." But, ya.. everyone have to go through.. Maybe its tooo sudden, that many people dont know how to feel larh.. But, all in all, pray that God will be in hand.. That He will guide and help.. And heal the pain in the hearts of the family..

伯伯，

我知道你看不到了，我也不會再聽到你的聲音了。。寫這個就當作紀念吧。。我相信你在神的懷抱中，一定會很好的。。雖然我們都很捨不得，但是我們會加油的！孩子們和老婆還是我們的家人，永遠都會是，只要需要，我們都會去幫忙。。安息吧。。我會減肥的！你每次和我說，不要吃那麼多，小心變大肥婆，沒有人要。。你還要介紹我男生的嘞！哈哈。。我會一直記得你的。。在我生命里，你很重要。。=) 再見了，我們會再見面的！ <3

珊

Condolences

2010-02-03T08:00:00.006+08:00

I still couldnt really catch my mind.. I'm totally awake, but I just couldnt really feel anything.. This morning, while I was still sleeping, I heard my brother, David, answering a call from muh second brother, Dickson, saying "What?! PaPa passed away?! Stop kidding! Its not something funny.." It shocked me.. I jumped up from the bed, wanting to find out what's going on.. I was literally stunt for that moment.. When they hung up the phone, I was told that, not my Daddie, but my uncle passed away.. It is so sudden.. It was scary for that very moment.. I thought it was really Daddie.. I.. dont know how to feel things now..

Our family is not really big, my grandma has 5 kids, and my uncle ranked the first. The last time I saw him was about Christmas time.. And he was still kidding around and told me to diet, saying "too fat, later nobody wants you aa..." Now, he's gone.. Just like that.. Seriously, I'm totally speechless now.. How heart-attacks could kill.. I... am in total speechlessness..

Before the long break of this blog =)

2009-12-29T23:54:00.002+08:00

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! I'm gonna be away for long~~~ So this blog will be.. rather dead.. LOL Wondering where will I be? Oh yea... Lemme show you =P

30th Dec - 1st Jan : Genting
1st Jan - 3rd Jan : KL
3rd Jan - 31 Jan : Kluang/YMI
1st Feb - XXX Feb - KL/KT

Havent decide when to come back... But it will be around February larh hahahahaha... So, take this chance to greet everyone HAPPY NEW YEAR! in advanced LOL Though its kinda early now.. But.. never mind larh hahahaha XD Have a great year ahead and see you guys next year February! ♥

Report after soooo long =P

2009-12-25T21:05:00.002+08:00

Aaa.. Many had been asking me.. When will you be updating your blog?! hahaha. Now I'm going to update lorh... =P Couldnt really find time to type marh =P Anyway, I just got back from KL yesterday.. For Christmas of course =P Though there's nothing much of entertainment here in Kuala Terengganu, but its always a joyful thing to be here especially for festive seasons.. Ahh! I was so happy when I got back and as I travelled along the beach road.. Oh my!! Its just so wonderful to see waves~ Its even more wonderful to breathe KT's air =P Anyway, Blessed Christmas everyone! I pray for God's blessing to shower upon everyone of you! Have a great year ahead! Awww.. my final teen-year is ending soon.. So sad =( But still, I thank God for everything ♥

Let's do some recap.. ESPlosion VIII.. Seriously, I wasnt that keen in going at first, so I ended up to be going without much expectation.. Dont ask my why lorh.. Cause I dont know.. However, to me, this year's camp is a lil different from those before.. Or should I say it touched me in a different way? Things were just to dear to me, even though I'm still struggling, but I'm trying hard.. I enjoyed the sermons, the worship and thanks to all he organisers and those who put this into something, its my 6th camp and yea, I've learnt a lot.. Especially this time.. =) I'm never a perfect person, I did things that I shouldnt, which I believe many do also.. hahahaha.. Its very tiring to resurrender and recommit the same thing again and again.. Ahh.. Dont 38 larh... I wont be telling you what is it.. Only Christina Tan knows =P I'm still trying.. ^^ And yah! I feel so old this time around? I used to be one of the youngest when I first joined ESPlosion camp, but now I'm the oldest in HG that joined! Aaaaa! How time flies... Awww~ =(

Right after ESPlosion camp, I directly went to KL, thanks Cheng Yee for the ride! ^^ And as usual, Year end sales~ wakakaka.. shopped for sure! LOL.. For CNY mostly, since I wouldnt much time left after YMI.. LOL.. Seriously, I enjoyed this time's trip a lot.. I got to shopped, I got to see lots of friends and not forgetting that I got to sing K! But I didnt get to watch any movies =X Tarak mase larh T_T But I'm so happy~ Ps : BONNIE! I GOT TO SHOP! =P

(photos are available in Facebook, Please help yourself there =P)

Aloha after a long missing~

2009-12-19T01:31:00.003+08:00

Hello Leng Chais and Leng Luis~ Miss me? Aaaa! I've been missing for like almost a week? And please pardon me yah.. I was away for ESPlosion camp and currently stucked in KL for holidays to do some end year shopping XD

I'm just giving a rough updates cause its like 1.35am here and i'm typing in the dark? LOL I'm acting like a thief =.= Oh my my.. *swt* gimme some time, I'll soon give a update for ESPlosion camp and my days here in KL~ So long!! XD

Can't wait..

2009-12-04T12:45:00.001+08:00

One more week; 2 more papers!!!!
Oh man!!!! I'm gonna be free~~~
Weeee~~~~~~~~~
Jogging anyone??
After exam of course =P

Lately..

2009-11-27T13:21:00.004+08:00

AaaaaaaAaaaaaaaaa!!!

Aloha everyyyyyyyyboooodyyyy!!! Miss me? I know you do *shyshy* hahahaha... You know what? I'm done with 4 papers! Couldnt believe that! Time just flies! Its now 4 down, 4 more to go! *Ush!* Let's do some sum up... =P Basically, exam was... Hmm... Seriously I dont know -_-" I just did and wrote what I know.. Hopefully it will turn out okay.. I did my part and I'm gonna leave it all to Him now =) But one thing I do know is that, God has been gracious to me.. Time's ngam ngam for all the papers.. And I didnt fall asleep during the exam.. LOL! and Ahh! 3 hours non-stop writting really does kill -.-

And ya.. I had fever 2 days ago, which continues on till yesterday and guess what? Yesterday I had 2 papers! XD Both 3 hours.. It was pretty bad cause I was sneezing and sucking throughout the exams -.- And the headache was just bad.. =( The invigilator is so kind that she even brought me tissue papers.. *touched* T_T So needless to say, when I'm done with my papers, there's lots of "wantans".. Anybody wants it? Wakakakakaka~ XD I still remember that before entering the exam hall, I was telling Priyaa : "Eh.. Today you cham edy.." "Why..?" "Cause I'm gonna keep on sneezing throughout the exam.." LOL~~ XD Anyway, the day was just terrible.. LOL.. I'm actually thankful that I am able to made it through the 2 papers.. XD

So, 4 more to go! Jia you Jia you!

All in all, I give You thanks =)

STPM

2009-11-22T23:46:00.003+08:00

I'm getting more and more nervous as the clock ticks.. =X In 8 hours time I will be sitting in the classroom and answer STPM papers! Do keep me in prayer!

23 Nov
Pengajian Am 2 (8-11am)

24 Nov
Sejarah 1 (2-5pm)

26 Nov
Bahasa Malaysia 2 (8-11am)
Pengajian Perniagaan (2-5pm)

30 Nov
Sejarah 2 (8-11am)

3 Dis
Pengajian Perniagaan 2 (8-11am)

9 Dis
Pengajian Am 1 (2-4pm)

10 Dis
Bahasa Malaysia 1 (2-4pm)

Ps : With You will I go through this.. =)

Skyping With Bonnie The Gemuk Potato

2009-11-22T01:51:00.006+08:00

Current time (Still skyping!XD):
Malaysia - 1.54 am
Moscow - 8.54 pm

Oik Potato Gemuk! See you soon! Wakakakakakaak XD

有關我的部落格。。

2009-11-19T16:46:00.008+08:00

我發覺到最近好多人和我說：“誒 33！你的部落格打多粒華語字會死啊？！” 阿不然嘞，就說：“爲什麽都是英文啊？！” 不要問我為什麼我的部落格全部都是英文。。哈哈哈哈哈。。因為。。。所以。。。不但。。。而且。。。 -。- 我其實也很想打華語啊。。但是hoh。。據我說知，看我部落格的人。。有一半是不會華語的。。我的媽啊。。XD 所以沒辦法拉~ 等考完試之後看看有沒心情來個華語長篇塞住你們的嘴！LOL 等我哦！！哇卡卡卡卡卡卡 XD

Ps :我本大美女！絕對不是香蕉人！＝Ｘ

Appreciation ❤

2009-11-16T00:41:00.005+08:00

Will make it a very short post, I just woke up.. (Like 10 minutes ago? and going to continue after this post =P) Just wanna mark down some memories.. =)

Today we had the Form 6's Mohon Restu Session, which usually held for those forms that will be taking major exam every year.. Everything was fine, but it sorta struck me when I came to know that I actually love my form's folks =.= Much more than what I've expected. For classmates, teachers.. Every single one of them.. ❤

When I walk passed the teachers, they blessed us and gave us good hugs, and I cant help myself but teared. Dont ask me why =.= I didnt plan too.. In fact I was trying to hold my tears throughout the whole session.. We were actually told that the Form Sixers are being isolated, the principal didnt even bother to bother us in any ways.. I know our bad results had caused troubles to teachers.. When one by one, the teachers told me, "Christina, kena berusaha tau.. Mesti Dapat 4 flat.. Bagi tau mereka kita form 6 boleh buat.." Actually I dont put so high hope on myself, I dont wanna let anyone down, but I will try my best in all things, for myself, for papa, for mummie, for popo, for teachers, for those who love me and supported me all the way, and of course, for God on high =) For You and you I will..

Though I dont think many school's folks will be reading my blog, but.. Hahahhaa.. I'll end with some words of appreciation to them =)

For AK3,
ko rang nih, ada kala tu bising gok eh.. Tapi, nok kabor kat ko rang, Christina betul2 sayang kat ko rang, trima kasih bagi ,'brikan banyak2 memories 2 tahun nih, kite kan berusaha sama-sama ya! lepah STPM tu, kite BBQ gih.. Gune kertah soalan =P Anyway, kalo 2 tahun nih, saye ada sakitkan hati sape2, maaf banyak2 ya..*Sayang banyak banyak* ♥

For all the 09's Upper Six in smkss..
Ko rang rocks! meskipun pada tahun awal persekolahan tu adalarh yg hokj aku dok suke, tapi epah gaul gaul tu.. jadi friend pulak XD.. x sangka kan.. walaopin aku ni patern macam sombong skek =.= Tapi, bukan eh, aku mmg pemalu skek -_-" Kalo dok larh baik sangak, patern bising saye dok keluar =.= So.. sabor banyok ya... Cayang banyok banyok kat ko rang~ *I pray for wisdom and understanding, bless these young ppl that they may excel in their studies, Amen =)*

For the teachers,
Wahai Cikgu2ku skalian~ XD Maaf banyok2 yah.. Walaupun saye nih.. kadang-kala tu cakak straight skek atau tersakit hati cikgu, tapi, dlm hati saya, mmg sayang kat cikgu2 sekalian, x beranilah aku nak jamin apa-apa, tapi, nak bagi tau cikgu, saye kan berusaha, bukan je bagi pihak diri sendiri, juga demi cikgu2.. walaupun klah dan form kite tu, cacat gok results.. Tapi ko rang x putus asa.. LOL.. cayang banyok2 kat cikgu semua... Saye doakan kesihatan dan hapiness dlm hidup cikgu2 semua

Pls : Sir Tan and teacher Asmah, sorry for disappointing your both in muet, seriously I dont put any hope on the recent papers.. they are.. much harder than the previous test -_-" But, I've tried hard.. Thanks for everything and Sorry =( *hearts*

Aaaaaaaa!!!

2009-11-10T15:26:00.002+08:00

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊

I know i've gained weight!
Dont remind me! T_T
I promise I'll eat less,
and work out after STPM! T_T
You'll then see a Leng Lui~
*TADAA*
Even though I am now one,
but I mean more leng larh *shyshy*

WAIT FOR ME!!!! T_T

Form 6 End Year Gathering

2009-11-06T16:08:00.010+08:00

Ahhhh!!!! Couldnt believe that my form 6 life is coming to an end! Time flies seriously.. 1 1/2 years' almost gone.. People used to say time flies faster when you get older.. Now I agree.. Sometimes I feel like freezing the time.. It just ticks and ticks.. and gone.. Hahahaha.. Anyway we had our end year gathering yesterday.. Basically its like a lunch then some talks together larh.. However, I had great time.. With all the form mates.. You know what? I dont used to like all the form mates.. Cause some of them are kinda.. LOL.. differ from the others, but however, all of us got close some times later and I came to see that, they're too, beautiful in someways and yes! They are crazy! Not just my classmates, but those from other classes too! Though I still prefer 6AK3 *shyshy* hahahahaha but I love ya all~ ❤

Cant deny that our year's students are pretty slack-ish.. Its kinda odd when the VIPs reached before the students in a function.. Oh well.. That's our year.. hahahaha We tried our best! Time is just not enough! And there's traffic jam everywhere, so..... hahahaha.. The function was kinda miss-scheduled LOL.. The one who's suppose to read the Islamic prayer wasnt there when his name was called, in fact, he reached later then us.. Need not to say the other guys who're never on time for anything.. LOL.. XD Not long after that, we started the feast! We paid a lot for it leh.. LOL.. So, better make full use, makan more larh.. LOL~ XD

Foods, only our table's XD

When we were eating.. cameras kept on coming to us... (aiyak.. what to do? with all the leng luis there~ =P) So, it was rather busy eating and posting.. hahahaha.. darn crazy~~~ After food, of course the photo snapping goes on.. Duh~ hahaha... We took kinda many pictures actually.. Then we went to the toilet to sambung our session.. LOL.. (Have you ever wonder why toilet never missed to become the fav spot for taking pictures? I did! LOL..) hahahahaha... After photos, then photos, and photos and photos, basically what we did that day was taking pictures.. XD Of course I'm glad that I had a great time there, but I'm also thankful that, I had an incredible year here in my highschool. For good teachers, good companions, good times, bad times, I'd love to thank God for them.. We'll hit out hard for STPM k? We can make it! Ush! *hearts~ ♥*

With Cikgu Jaliliah

With Cikgu Norma, Cikgu Azizah

6AK3 2009

Cikgu Shafiai

Cikgu Aminah

Cikgu Syed Annuar, Cikgu Issaic

Teacher Asmah
Cikgu Halimah

One Malaysia！LOL XD

Pretty ladies from 6AK3

When the ladies gone wild =X
*Drooling*

SMKSS五大金花 *嘔*

Oh~ Sexy Ladies~ =P hahahaha XD

Desperate Students =X

Pui Juin

YenYen

The ever leng lui! XD

Yong Ching

The ladies

OoLaLa~

That's all for now~ For more pictures, check out my facebook's album yah.. For signature, please book a time with my assistant.. LOL! hahahahaha =P So long~

I love you 你懂不懂

2009-10-31T06:12:00.005+08:00

今天在香港、臺灣的梦境聽見有人唱这首歌 - I love you 你懂不懂，感觉很不错聽下，於是就跑去下載了這首歌(Illegal 的 =X），再去找找了那個歌詞，對從來聽歌都一定要明白歌詞的我，一點都不出奇啦~ 看了歌詞，有點點會想到從前的時候。。（回憶~過去~ LOL）很像當時的我，如果我那時候聽這首歌，相信我一定是哭到霹靂巴拉的。。現在聽也有一樣的感動，只是，不會去那麼在意自己控制不了的東西。。感覺上，這幾年來，自己真的長大了~ 很多東西都想得開了。。但是有時候想到以前啊，自己都會傻傻的偷笑。。哈哈哈哈。。Anyway。。很棒的一首歌，你們可以去聽聽看 ^^

为什么你要放手
怎么都不会给我理由
突然放弃了承诺
回到孤单的角落

以为你已被感动
却又默默不语的出走
让我措手不及的去接手
你留下的残忍伤口

i love u你知不知道懂不懂
放弃所有只为了想爱你很久
用什么形容
没有你感觉都朦胧
i love u 我懂你的世界没有我
可能我也不过是你的玩偶
当空气沉默
i love u 我好寂寞

让时空回到有你的时候
手牵手不需要什么疑惑
如果时光能倒流
不管多久我都等候

Nervous, fear..

2009-10-25T22:50:00.003+08:00

STPM's a few days ahead,
MUET's even closer! =X
This is most probably the first time I'm feeling so nervous over exams -.-
Not even SPM that I felt this terrible =.=
Ahh! Cham..

Give me strength to move on..
I need You..

Second Niece!

2009-10-19T15:39:00.003+08:00

Hahahahaha! Oh nononono!! I still couldnt believe the fact that I'm an aunt now! Not of a baby but two babies~~ Call my Auntie Christina~ =P

Arent them adorable?! Awww.. Like auntie like nieces~~~ *shyshy* Grow up fast babies~~ ^^

A Father's Amazing Love

2009-10-10T03:03:00.003+08:00

Note : None of the below is by me, I'm just sharing with all of you.. (Ps : prepare some tissue paper T_T)

A son asked his father, "Dad, will you take part in a marathon with me?" The father who despite having a heart condition, said, "Yes".

They went on to complete the marathon together. Father and son went on to join other marathons, the father always saying, "Yes" to his son's request of going through the race together.

One day, the son asked his father, 'Dad, let us join the Ironman together; to which his father said, "Yes", too.

For those who don't know, Ironman is the toughest triathlon ever. The race consists of three endurance events of a 2.4 miles (3.86 kilometers) ocean swim followed by a 112 miles (180.2 kilometers) bike ride and ending with a 26.2 miles (42.195 kilometers) marathon along the coast of the Big Island.

Father and son went on to complete the race together.

Based on the TV interview of Dick and Rick Hoyt, Dick, the father explained that Rick while still in his mother's womb, the umbilical chord was wrapped around his neck cutting off oxygen to the brain.

And when Rick was born, the doctor who was looking after Rick told Dick and his wife that Rick would never be able to walk nor talk all his life that it would be best that they put him away. But the Hoyts would not be willing to do such a thing and decided to bring him home instead and decided likewise to treat him just like anyone normal kid. So that when the family went for a swim, Rick went with them and so on and so forth.

It was one day while wathing TV (if my memory serves me right) that Rick saw a benefit marathon for a paralityc child and he wanted to be a part of the benefit marathon. And that started both father and son with their races even while Dick had a heart condition and Rick himself was not well all the time. In fact there were two years where they were not able to join the races because Dick had a heart attack and the other year was that (if I remember it correctly now, Rick was the one who had a problem.

And also based on an article that I read about them, both had so far completed 212 triathlons, 4 15-hour Inronmans. And that it was two years back from today, when Dick had his heart attack, and his doctor said, had it not been his good physical condition on account of the races, he would have died 15 years ago.

Both then via the races have served one another in a loving and wonderful way.

Dick humbly said in the interview when he was called a hero by the interviewer, "I just simply love my family".

And indeed, he loved them even as he loved Rick that much that he committed himself to do the tough physical demands of the races and the triathlons, the Ironman that his son may have the chance to enjoy the races and be a part of life. And in a return show of love and appreciation, Rick says this of his father, "Dad is my hero."

And to end my inputs on the father and son, I'd like to end what Rick says that he likes most...(Rick types using a special machine), he says, "The thing I most like is my dad sit in the chair and I push him once."

How touching!
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My personal take from the video is that it enriched me greatly in terms of better understanding and appreciation of the love of God for me and you - a love so great and infinitely amazing and unmatched compared to the great and amazing love of the father in the video for his son.

If we could only plainly and in human terms ask God, the Lord Jesus Christ how much He loves us - He who came in the flesh to be mocked, spat upon, punched in the face, bruised with spiked whip, stripped naked to be utterly humiliated by His beloved creation - man, and then subjected to the most excruciating death of all- death by cruzifixtion of the cross in order that by taking His death and blood as the payment for our sins, we may escape the second death which is hell, the lake that burns with fire and brimstone (fire never quenched and all the senses intact and the body is never consumed unto eternity)and that we might live unto eternity with Him in heaven....... perhaps He would answer us in this way ....this much, He would say, "First He would look at us directly in the eye as He would spread HIs hands to the sides horizontal to the ground and as we see His nail- pierced hands, He bows his head (meaning, dead on the cross by cruzifixtion). And maybe, all of us would kneel before His feet, with a return show of love and appreciation for what He has done, in chorus we would say, "Oh Lord and my God!"

Praise God for His amazing love for all of us. May all who have the chance to view the video even all of mankind who would not be able to see the video, may in some way find themselves thru other means, find a better understanding of the depth, height, width and length of the beauty and wonder of God's love for all of us, the righteous and unrighteous even the fullest appreciation of such amazing love and appropriation of it.

All glory to God in the highest!

For my love in the far away land <3

2009-10-07T16:12:00.002+08:00

To my love in Russia,

Never give up,
Dont feel bad nor stress..
He's with you, so am I..
Not exactly there in where you are,
but my heart's with you =)

Oh gosh! I miss you badly =(

Just For Laugh XD

2009-10-03T03:04:00.007+08:00

Wasnt in a real good mood.. Mood swing I guess =X However the mood got up later on.. Thanks to a few people who cheered me up.. and thanks Hagiri for the call all the way from Indonesia.. hahaha.. (I'll keep your secret.. Shhhh =P) Anyway, earlier on, my friends sent me some videos.. Or should I say introduced? Hahahaha whatever.. They're funny XD!! Maybe you guys will like it too.. hahahaha Enjoy~ =P

The embedded codes of the other video has been disabled, So couldnt post it here, but you can always click here to direct you to Youtube.. Oh gosh.. Couldnt believe Justin Timberlake will do that LMAO! XD

HappyBirthdayToMe 。祝我生日快乐

2009-09-21T04:09:00.006+08:00

Edited 21st Sept 2009, 11pm

Hahahahaha... Its 21st September again! Oh no! Time flies man! Cant believe that I am now 19 years old! Remember when I was much younger. I used to wish that I could grow up fast.. Especially on looking forward to my 18th Birthday.. However, after 18th's I somehow wish that the time could be stopped so that I wouldnt grow old.. =X This year's birthday, I dont really look forward, or I should say, its like "just another day". But, I am super duper-ly glad cause many people still remember my birthday.. Hahahaha.. For those who wished, THANK　YOU! I truly appreciate it.. In fact It kinda makes my day.. =P

Special thanks to : -

My brother, David, who is always the first to call and to wish me every year, I mean on the day itself laa... =P

Bonnie, who bought me Moon cake from Starbucks in substituting the actual cake since she had already left for Russia and who called all the way back from Russia to greet me happy birthday in this wonderful day~ XD Thanks to Sexy Keily too =P

Hagiri, for the song through phone =P

Sebastian, for the cam-showing (with the cute sleepy face =P)

My Bao BuuuisSs~ Oh gosh! They are HOT! Heart them lots~ ♥

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You know what?! Oh gosh! I am super duperly feeling great! Oh well.. I dont have great parties, nor gatherings, but as I grow up, I realised that I dont really fancy all those stuff =.= Its really nice to just have a small gathering within the family, a dinner perhaps, it just feels so good. =) Good enough, Dickson came back even though David's not here.. hahahaha.. But I am really glad that at least, I'm still alive seeing myself, celebrating another birthday.. (though I dont really wanna celebrate cause I feel like I'm getting older?! Oh no! =X) hahahaha... What makes me feel happiest is that I got many many wishes from people, either via emails, fb, phone calls, sms nor face-to-face wishes.. and I'm actually surprised that people remember my birthday -_-" I thought only ghost would remember that.. LOL.. I'm just more than happy, again to say, YOU ＧＵＹS ROCK BABES!! I'm really glad.. =D

Not to forget to thank God for who I am today =) Everything that I have, everything that I get, all of them have truly proved that God had been so gracious to me.. I love you Daddie God!! ♥

And of course! My dearest family members, Muh ever handsome Daddie, ever pretty Mummie and ever smart brother Dickson for accompanying me this whole day.. I heart you guys loads! Of course not leaving the ever protective Mr David Chin.. Many thanks!! Oh gosh! They're my life! Muaksss!! My life had been and am wonderful because of these people.. Its more than colours on plain paper.. They are like magic in my life.. My ever loved, ever cherished, my family =)

A sent away love =)

2009-09-12T12:28:00.008+08:00

Run away love~
Run away love~
Run away love~
Run away love~

Oh I sang this song years ago, featuring Pratheeb's rapping in the song Run Away Love years ago back in secondary school.. Recalling some memories here.. Actually, my life in secondary school's that that bad.. Good schoolmates and all.. Hahaha.. Though at first I dont really like it when I transferred there from Wei Sin.. However, I got into the "society" later on.. XD

Anyway, this post has nothing to do wit my high school though, just that it came across my mind.. hahaha.. Wondering why the title is set as "A sent away love"? Particularly, it is because I've sent away my love, who'll be going to Russia in days time, due to the trial exam, I'm not able to send her off in KLIA, the furthest I can go is the Kuala Terengganu's airport.. Before we went to the airport, I told mysef.. "Eh san.. dont cry a.. I tell you.. A Nie will be back next year one marh.. Hehehe.. " Well and good, I didnt cry at all.. Not a single tear I've teared.. We took some "final" pictures, final talks.. The last word I heard from her there is "I'll see you June next year". Then there she goes, went boarding with her luggage.. A love was then sent away.. Look through the mirror, I cried?! Oh no, I've tried hard! But I couldnt help it.. No wonder people used to call me cry baby, I realised that I can cry easily.. Tear drops isnt because of I'm feeling sad, in fact, I aint feeling sad at all.. Its just that I feel heavy-hearted..

Some of you might not know who Bonnie is, lemme give you a brief introduction =) She's a very wonderful lady, was born 3 weeks before me, we share the same surname and we call each other cousin =) We grew up together, we gossipped, we crapped, we joked, we played, kicked each others' ass, and of course we argued along the way, something funny about our argue is that we could get back to each other very fast, not so much of a angry-ing progression.. LOL We have lots of things in common, perhaps that is why we could get along well.. We share the same interests and choice in things, she is a really good shopping companion to me, at least to me she is =P Now that she's gone, nobody's gonna give me company in shopping already.. Remembering the other day, she told me "I wanna go shopping with you larh! We cant shop together already this December.." I'm gonna miss you like crazy larh! Oh gosh! =( We celebrated each others' birthday without miss for our life.. LOL.. I celebrated hers for 19 years and now she missed mine! KNS one larh! She'll not be here to celebrate my birthday this year.. Though its just like one week plus days to go.. There she will goes, flying up high through the clouds and above the skies, to another foreign country.. There goes my heart, my love..

Take care my darling, Love ya loads and take care in where you'll be! Keep yourself in one piece! We promise to see each other next year right? ♥ *My truly loved, truly cherished =)*

A person to love,
A time to spend together;
A person to cherish,
A time to let go and to bless =)

Kiss Goodbye ♥

Ps : BaiBai, take care in China too =(

Blessed Birthday Darling! <3

2009-09-01T13:15:00.006+08:00

Tanggal tiga puluh satu~
Bulan lapan lima puluh tujuh~

OH MEEEEEEEE GOSH! Its 31st of August again! TADAA~ Happy 52nd Birthday Malaysia~~~ Muuuuuuuuuuakss! (Okay, dont stare at me this way! I am proud to be a Malaysian okay~ XD)Its truly blessed to be born here, and I am not ashame of where I am from ^^ Thank God for granting us good times in the past years here in Malaysia! XD

OooLah! Done with the country laa.. BLESSED BIRTHDAY DARLING BONNIE!!! UekUek.. =P Happy 19th Birthday, big girl edy leh... Grow up larh! =P This might be the last year we spend birthday together, dont know when will be our next in the future since you will be far away in Russia while dont know where would I be in the future, never missed for 19 years.. Hahahaha.. Gonna miss you much seriously.. Oh no, dont expect me to cry.. I wont! XD I'm proud to have you in any ways, though sometimes you're kinda weird but duh... Biasalarh tuu... XD I love you my dear one =)

I LIED! I literally LIED just to trap Bonnie into the plan! Oh no! Sorry.. I dont mean it?? Nah.. I meant it! XD Its hard to get everyone into the plan though.. Even PoPo helped in getting her into our plan =P Thanks Po! ♥ Hahahahhaa.. We actually bluffed her that we're going out with Yong ching's boy and kckc-ly ask her to come along.. Hahahaha.. So fun! And when we were there, she thought it was only coincident that we met the others there (that they hang out without asking her out Aww... How sad.. XD) It was pretty fun though.. I hope you'll never forget this which happened on your final "teen-year" before you step into the "ty=year" XD I still owe you a present! So what do you want jek?! Aikss... Hard to get stuff in KT laa T_T I give you my heart larh want? =P *shyshy*

Anak Merdeka

Sweeties ♥

Sexy Boy~ =P

Food - Secret Recipe

Night Session XD

Cindy will be leaving for Canada soon, Bonnie will be leaving for Russie soon too, Left Zhimin and I here, facing STPM, Poor thing larh.. But we will gather again next year, Promise? My truly hearted, truly cherished and truly loved, take care please Baybeh~

(Ps : photos will be up soon.. Havent grab from Bonnie yet =P)

Prayer

2009-08-29T01:56:00.006+08:00

Its playing again..
The same song..
The same feel..
The same kind of emotion..
And the same kind of mood..

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me

Ps ： Break my heart from what breaks Yours

Redang Trip

2009-08-15T16:43:00.014+08:00

Aloha~~~ I am feeling so good now~~~ YuuuHooo~~~ OH YESH! I just came back from Redang Island yesterday, Duh~ I typed in title dy wutt XD Seriously, I love Pulau Redang you see, I'm just so in love with everything in there T_T This time we went there in a group of 4, Pretty Bonnie, Beautiful Keily and Sexy Palia, Violet~~~ and of course me loh.. LOL.. *shyshy*

Seriously, I enjoy this trip very very much.. Cause we have the ever-talkative Ms Violet, and also the Siaosss, Bonnie and Keily.. We went for 3 days and 2 nights, in Redang Pelangi, although its not as good as those 5 stars resorts, but seriously I enjoyed being there, we got very good services, good treats, good plays and all.. I think 280 is definitely worth the price! In fact I think I got much more than what I paid!

The food was pretty good laa.. More to the typical economical food, but its kinda nice.. especially the mutton! Ahh!! Darn chun! *slurrrrrp* What we did in the trip was basically, sun bathe, swim, snorkeling, sing, beach walking, crapping... Hahahaha.. As mentioned before, we were given good treats.. Especially by the beach boys and boat man.. We got to see many many things, and you know what? I hope I can swim, I wanna dive into the sea and experience things.. I seriously find the feeling great! Awww!! How can I not fall in love with the island?! Tell me!! hahahaha.. As mentioned before, the beach boys treated us good and showed us around.. Oh my goodness.. If it isnt because of them, I dont think I am able to see so many things! and yes, this is the time when I enjoyed my time in Marine park most, seriously, before this, I dont really liked Marine Park cause its pack with people -.- and guess what?! I drank sea water more this time than the last time I went to Marine Park -.- Thanks to Ms Violet~ hahahahaha... And I realised there's so much of funny funny things happened in Marine park, Well.. You know right.. There's lots of fishes here.. and we bought bread, and the problem is, nobody wanna holds the bread! Cause we were scared of being surrounded by schools of fishes.. Believe me! They are scary! =X But there's so much joy there... Hahahhahahaa.. one word, CHUN! XD

Another highlight was -.- We sang the so called "K" in the resort we were in, at first we were "moon-bathing" and were thinking.. Eii..?? People sing dou so cham, we also go sing larh.. LOL.. So we went, and our Ms Palia sipek high you know?!?! Everyone was like looking at her.. LOL.. and the way she danced, I tell you! You will LYAO! LOL.. Cannot tahan larh.. LOL.. She's just too crazy.. I think she's the craziest friend I ever had -_-" Even Pak Mat said she's mad..!! LOL!! But Its really fun with her larh.. wakkakakaa.. Next time wanna go Redang must Jio her.. LOL.. sure wont feel bored XD

And one more thing!!!! I got sun burn!!! aaaaaAaaaAaaaaAAAaaaa~~~~~~~~~!!! Mama Mia! Its painful! Oh gosh.. This is the first time I got sun burn this bad -.- Even sleep also susah... T_T KNS betul loh.. LOL.. But thinking back on all the fun time.. Worth it larh... Pulau Redang~~~ I love you~~~~ But NO WAY! I AM NOT MARRYING YOU! Argh!!!!! /.\ XD That's all for now laa.. Pictures time~ Enjoy~~ =P

In the Bus; on the way to the Jetty

Ms Palia
(WIthout her super super kua zhueng high heels! XD)

Pretty Bonnie and Beautiful Keily

Room

Cam Whoring XD

Finally~~ T_T

Ki siao XD
Trg kids are perasan XD

Food

Perasan-ing while we're on our way to see the blue sand XD

Cute little fella~~ XD

Sun burn!! T_T
Check out the 2 colours T_T

Ms Violet palia-ing with her aloe vera =.=

Our shadows

Scenery : -

When we're back in town, we went to buy stuff for Keily's parents and we did a lil walk in Batu Burok.. So, basically the things larh.. LOL.. Adios~~

Ps : Redang, I will be back! Muahahahahahaha~~ XD

Signing off,

Short cuts

2009-08-02T21:20:00.007+08:00

I'm gonna cut short everything, all in one.. Hahaha.. Since I've been absent minded for quite some times.. Poor bloggie dearie had been abandoned for long. My bad.. ^^

Recently, it feels like.. Hmm.. Life's pretty good.. Still playing hard, but speeding up and working harder than before too.. Dont wanna lose to myself, I wish I can do it.. Can I? I am desperate! I feel like burning the books, stir in water and drink it! Yes! I am that deperate! T_T MUET result was rather disappointing, mid year results too, everything is just bad BAD and BAD! I feel like I'm gonna bang myself to the wall.. Some times I wish I am one of those brainy.. Who can stuck everything in their head, but I am not..

Recently, Shin Yi came back, so the 4 of us did some gatherings, it feels so good to see them all together! I *heart* them loads.. Thinking far, next year we wont be gathering as one, I'm feeling a lil sad.. Bonnie will be going to Russia, Cindy's not coming back from Canada.. But with all my heart, I pray for the best blessing on them in studies, both future Doctors, Gambate Kudasai! Same goes to Zhimin and myself, Jia You in STPM.. We can make it! Ush!

The other day, I went out yum cha with Yong Ching, Wei Chen and Eng Seng, it was pretty much of a ladies session laa.. Talked lots bout guys and all.. As usual, a lil gossips and all.. But it was pretty fun.. Thinking back, way back in the primary school, we were so good by then.. And it was funny then I was told that I offered someone a chance to spend recess time together! I dont even remember that, the "me" now, I wonder wil I do that.. hahaha... We took some pics, but I feel lazy to upload it yet.. Will post it later or in facebook soon larh hah.. XD =P

YESH! I'M GOING TO REDANG~~
*What?! again?!*
Oh yes! AGAIN! SO what？ Bite me larh! LOL =P
I'm really looking forward to it~ =）

Ps : I know my blog's rather down recently, I will do some catch ups soon.. Lastly, I LOVE BEING SINGLE! Duh~ As if I'm not.. -.- XD

Public Holiday

2009-07-20T20:10:00.003+08:00

Ahhhhhhhhhhh!!! I didnt know that today's holiday until yesterday I went to school -.- Seriously, IF I know there's no school today, for sure I wont be going yesterday cause OH NO~! I'm gonna have 5 days holidays! LOL =P Wondering why 5 days? cause I skipped Thursday's class.. LOL.. Too bad, I didnt know and I went.. Hahaha.. But it was pretty slackish at home.. And I feel so good after the long sleep... Wanna make a good guess? LOL... I eventually slept for.......

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14 HOURS!!

Wakakaka.. from 6pm yesterday till 8am this morning.. Oh!! I feel good~~ (Dadadadadadada) HoHoHo~ Trust me, I wanna try sleeping 36 hours in 2 days! Of course not now.. after muh exam maybe =P

And ya.. I just saw a friend's blog, there's a short clip on his tongue piercing session.. I find it.. not disgusting.. But I feel one kind when i was streaming through the video.. and I ended up closing before I finished it cause I could feel goosebums on my hands! =X Oh mum! I would never want to try that~~!! =S

Result

2009-07-15T17:03:00.003+08:00

I just needed one more mark.. T_T

Now I have to retake..

How pathetic is that?!?! T_T

Tonight I wanna bang wall!!

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Nonsense

2009-07-12T22:33:00.014+08:00

Nonsense Nonsense NONSENSE! LOL.. Wondering why? LOL.. =P The other day, Thursday, I skipped half of the classes with the reason ---- "stomachache"... Who knows it hits as a hot news among the teachers and students -_-"Which its statement says that I got H1N1?! When Priyaa SMS-ed me, I was like.. Wow.. H1N1.. LOL.. I'm not married yet, wont die so fast laa.. lolz.. =P But it was pretty ridiculous cause -.- The upper six students were told by the lower six's students, while the lower six's heard from the other form's students and it became kinda.. "big issue" with the spreading news saying I got H1N1.. LOL.. Please, I dont have it.. I'm real healthy.. I can even peep on few more handsome guys with my current health status =P

I bet the new about changing the PPSMI back to BM is no longer a cold topic among Malaysian, since its kinda.. lolz.. "happening" this week.. I'm not sure how you would react or think about it, But I, personally, dont agree with that.. I mean.. The government put in so much effort, to make PPSMI a success.. But now, you're saying wanna change back after 8 years of launching? -.- Yes, I am aware of the so called "dropping" of the results in those subjects.. In a short perspective, it might seems to be kinda bad.. But in a long run, I bet it would certainly make some sense! Well you see, when you get into College/Uni, its all in English.. Why not start it earlier, to ground the students with better foundation in what they are about to face in the future? If its all now in BM, and if they find it hard to cope with the terms in English now, will they be able to cope with it when they get into Uni? If its taught since young, with a fresh and fast-absorbing brain, they will be able to relate or "adapt" to the English terms better. Well, I certainly do not agree with some of the people saying that : "Alah.. You Chinese and Indian dont have problem with English laa.. Of course you guys dont feel anything" I was like.. What?! There are lots of chinese out there whose English is not up to the standard! C'mon, English isnt even our mother tongue, not the so called "closest" language to our hearts. I personally speak mandarin more than English in my daily life.. Dont get me wrong, I am not saying my English is good. =.= It is just that, BM or English doesnt really affect the learning progression.. But when you who made sucha statement, claiming that the Chinese and the Indian dont have problem with it, to me, it shows me how coward you are! In other word, you sounds like you're a loser! Dont you have the urge to catch up to the standard and move forward instead of staying static at the origin? The world is changing! We need to get moving people! And I totally disagree with the statement where they say its to "memartabatkan BM"! Its only a few subjects in English! There's so many more in BM! Hear me say this, IF your mother tongue is so easily influenced by just a few subjects, it means you DOESNT EVEN FIT TO BE A MALAY! SAME GOES TO CHINESE! I am not saying that BM and Chinese are not important.. In fact, China is growing to be one of the most influential country.. How can a language that is dear to your heart be influenced so easily?! I am proud that I know BM and Chinese..! Seriously I think BM is pretty cool XD Language should be something that helps you to grow, helps you to be able to relate other people better.. But why is it that it became a bond that holds you back now? However, I do agree in using mother tongue in teaching subjects for primary school as a strong base towards the children.. =)

By the way, I have no intention on being judgemental on races nor anyone, its just towards those who told me sucha statement, it just doesn make sense to me in anyway =.= I dont understand, I really dont! Why the earlier generation has no problem in the transition period from English to BM in all subjects, while we find it so difficult in just Science and Mathematics? Does it mean we're weaker? more stupid? Or is it that we are nothing at all compared to the generations before? Haiz.. How pathetic..

Ps : I would like to urge all of you to log on to Dr. Mahathir Mohamad's blog in voting.. (Please click here to direct you to his blog) Whether its able to change anything or not, we'll leave it to the government.. But I am sorry to say, I am proud to be a Malaysian, but not of the government. =)

First ever camping experience

2009-07-06T14:39:00.024+08:00

hmm.. as written in the title, my first ever camping experience.. I mean those kind where you literally camp in a tent for days.. Seriously, haha.. its not so comfortable la.. LOL.. Or should I say very uncomfortable? LOL.. 5 people in a tent, hot and crowded.. LOL.. However, I did had fun.. With the girls.. XD (Ops.. Not that kind of things ok?! =X =P)
Basically, we camped from Thursday the 2nd till Saturday the 4th.. Which means we spend 3 days 2 nights in school.. We spent some time together on Wednesday night to do some shopping as preparation for the cooking competition and get some snacks, toiletries and other needs.. No where else but Mydin loh.. Since the stuff are cheaper there.. (Poor desperate students =X) It was pretty fun there.. cause it was so funny that we bought stuff in small portion.. What we bought? Hahaha.. Seafood? LOL.. 3 prawns, 4 lala, 2 sotong, 1 orange, 1 apple.. Pretty sweatening right? LOL.. The worker who was weighing the stuff for us laughed and asked us, are we sure that we're using those stuff to cook.. LOL. Ehem ehem. Of course! =P We bought a trolley full of goods and it cost us RM 100++..

Ladies XD

Oh ya!!! We bought happy sim pack.. LOL.. Some one asked me, "Do you feel happy after using it?" LOL.. Nope.. XD But its a pretty good package though, at least its much more cheaper to call or sms to digi line.. Compared to my maxis.. XD

Okay, back to the topic.. I brought lots of stuff to the camping, maps, wire extension, basin, dining set, and of course my bag and a few more things.. I was hand full.. How I wish I have 6 hands! XD I aint the only one bringing lots stuff though, Pei Juin, Yong Ching and Yen Yen too brought a lot.. It was like the 4 of us brought things double or triple from the others.. hahaha.. XD We brought rice cooker, fan, another tent(for storing things).. Hahahaha.. It was so nice to have a fan with us! It was terribly hot!!! I could sleep naked! (Oh no! I didnt said that! -_-") .. So, the 4 of us, together with Kuan Kin were in a tent, we did most stuff that dont looks like we're going for a school camp.. hahaha.. one of it was nail painting.. LOL.. It looks more like we're going for a vacation.. XD We played, we cooked, we shouted, we grumbled, we worked, we ate and we slept! XD

We took part in most of the events, cooking competition, life-jacket-making competition, singing competition.. But we won nothing.. Though we felt a lil bit not fair cause the others sang.. weirdly =.= However, thats the result, and the important thing is that we had fun throughout the thing! XD

Our model~ XD

Snap snap! Narcissism ones! XD

Police! Freeze! =X

Dinner : they cooked this,
pretty good.. =D

Bak Gua!!! XD this was a lil insane.. =.= we had our breakfast at 4 something in the morning where we were asked to wake up 3 something.. I dont know whats wrong with the teacher where he kept on buzzing us and asking us to sit by the bus station (outside the surau) while the muslims sembahyang inside.. We were so pissed off! Not even PLKN is like that! It pissed us off.. So badly.. =.= This was the worst senario in the whole camp.. I was thankful that the next day, Cikgu Syed didnt woke us up and sit OUTSIDE THE SURAU again.. Not like the sot plug teacher =.= We literally sat there and do nothing! Oh gosh! It really pissed me off =.=

We did aerobic in the morning and had the Poco-Poco dance, a pretty interesting dance laa.. LOL.. simple steps..

Gave up after a while LOL

To make sure our tent smells good, we plucked some jasmine flowers to freshen our tent.. XD

Then we went on with the Khidmat Komuniti.. we were asked to pick up trashes from the school field.. After the task, we did a lil siao kia thing.. XD What was it? TaaDaa~~ XD

Cepat kutip cepat!!

Lady GaGa's weird poses? =.=

L-O-V-E

Siao Po

I'm super duperly glad that its ended.. One is enough for me, Dont wish there's another camp like this.. again.. LOL hahahahaha.. As usual, randomized pictures =)

Which is whose? =P

Yong Ching

Fellow Form mates

Some scenery snaps

Our "Home"

Bak gua - Pei Juin XD

Seriously =.= I salute this guy =.=
He was like being the "victim" and was hang that way
as a demo of how JPA works =.=

Poser Boo~!! XD

=.=

Adios~~~~ XD

Btw, I'm an auntie now~~ My cousn just gave birth to baby girl.. So, call me Auntie Christina~ =P

Baby grow up fast~
May God pours out abundance of blessings on you my dear one ^^

My promise to you =)

2009-06-20T23:07:00.005+08:00

I just got a sms text from my Dad, in the same house, under the same roof.. After I pasted my room with papers to urge myself to stuck my butt in books rather than playing and doing craps.. When I read those words, my tears drop.. My heart literally ache.. I replied him.. and I gave him my words and this will be done for sure.. Its time to be serious =) Slap me if you see me online or slacking around.. Not weekend of course.. LOL =.=

Dad,
I'm not sure if you would read this.. Since you did come to my blog at times.. Like I said, I will prove to you that I can do it. For you I will. I love you =)

Emotion Complexion . Mind Complexion

2009-06-18T01:02:00.012+08:00

I feel....

Weird

Bad

Like crying

Like shouting

Like I dont know what to do

Like I dont know myself

Like I'm out of control of many things

Naive

Uncertain

Like I've changed?

Seriously, I've been on a pretty good mood during the past holiday.. Not until the last few days of it =) The other day, still in KL, I was sitting by the balcony, looking down, counting the passing-by-car, I thought by myself.. "I wanna go home..." Its been so long since last I have this kind of feeling.. As I sat there, I was thinking by myself, what happened to you kid? Arent these what you wanted? To come for holiday, to enjoy, on top of those, to meet friends? Why is this feeling haunting you? Dont you have a lot of things that you wanna share with your friends? Didnt you prepared a long script far before you came? What are you thinking and doing kid?! Are we changing? Am I changing in a weird way? - I really thought that through! Long before anyone elses talked to me.. I didnt thought of many things.. Things that I should be bringing into consideration, things that I should show more concern, and things that I should pay more attention to.. But I didnt. I am feeling lost.. ^^

If I'm given another chance,
I know I can make it better..
Much better than this..
Whom I truly hearted,
what I truly loved,
all that I wanted it to be,
it will all be in place for sure.. =)

PS : To whom I truly hearted, I heart you guys more than any other else, with love, sincerity and by heart, I might not show nor present them in a perfect way, but, I hope ya'll all know that my heart is ever true towards you guys. Friends mean a lot to me. And my context of friends is slightly different from the others. When I call you my friend, I'll treat you by heart, what more when I call you my good friends or bestest friends of all? Pardon me for acting out weirdly. Also pardon me when I reacted weirdly and showed big reaction when things changed. If I never cherish you, all these wouldnt be a matter to me, for sure.. But now they haunt me. Thank you for the memories, thank you for alll the things and moments we spent. I love you guys =) 认识了你们是我最幸褔的事 *heart*

Truly Cherished =)

2009-06-11T22:01:00.023+08:00

I'm back! XD Remember the last time I promised thatI will come up with a proper post about the small lil gathering and my Penang trip? Oh yea, I'm hereby to post that XD Might be a lil messy cause I'm kinda tired for Ijust reached home like 2 hours ago? LOL Anyway, here it goes =P

On the 6th, we went out as planned some time ago... At first, I thought of going to Hei's house early in the morning, but after thinking a while, I thought it would be good if I wait for Milan and go together.. Hahaha.. So I waited him and we met up in Masjid Jamek station and proceed our way to Taman Melati station.. Talked a lil, crapped a lil and suddenly Milan says there will be 2 misterious ppl joining us later.. I was like huh?! Who who who?! Oh well, I dont really like surprises.. Cause it can cause heart attack.. But no matter how I asked him, he still refused to tell me.. Fine about that.. Hahahaha.. So on our way there, I was on the phone with Ah Von, its so bad that he couldnt join us for the day for some personal reasons.. Sad case.. Aikss.. XD Not long after that, we reached our destination.. and we took taxi there to Hei's place.. You know what?! Hei Hei sipek kns one loh.. =.= He asked milan whether he needs him to pick him up from the lrt station.. Remembering the last time, the first time I went to his house, he didnt asked if there's a need for him to pick me up.. and yet he asked me to take taxi by myself =.= LOL hahahaha.. However, I'm seriously glad to see them.. I really really do XD

There in the house of course we met Hei and Oreo.. later on we too met, Maksim and Lao For.. Hahahaha.. Its my first time meeting Lao For.. Kinda.. hmm.. LOL.. funny type of feelings.. XD However we took lunch by the condo area and I'm so sorry that I accidentally spilt out the water cause Hei made me laugh =.= Sorry Maksim and Milen.. Both poor person =.= And after lunch, we made a quick move to Sg wang.. hahaha.. But still we were late by an hour =.= My apologies.. =( hahaha.. we met the others there, Jeff laa, Ah bing laa, Shan Shan laa, Banana la, Xiao Xiao and we went to Green Box as Sukiyi helped us to book room.. In the K room, I met Guai, Mei Mei, Jay, A Gua and later on JK and Bai Bai joined us.. Hahaha.. I didnt really sang much though, cause I was busy-ing running here and there to 38.. Hahahaha... but I did enjoyed myself that day =) After crapping and sang K we seperated our ways for own programmes while we all went back a\where by later on we went to listen to Maks and Forgotten sing in Little Tree.. Hahaha.. That's basically the day larh.. and yes.. Didnt really slept that day.. I think we slept around 6 in the morning.. Hahahaha.. Oh ya.. I'm so glad that Ah Gay made it for the competition.. XD You owe me a meal for waking you up =P

The next day, I was in a rush in sending my phone to repair so I left very early in the morning, and I proceeded my way to Low Yat while waiting for Bonnie, I'm also waiting for my phone to be done.. I was so worried that all the stuff inside the phone would be lost, But thank God everything's there.. Phew~~ XD After the phone's done, we met up Ah Von in Sg Wang.. He.. Hahaha.. His eye's kinda cute XD =P Did a lil shopping and drank a lil of course crapped and we made ways.. XD

Milen

Sexy =X

Wakie wakie~~

On our way
Bai Bai~~~

Sukiyi

Agua XD

Ah bing =P

Buggie Ah Von

Miss Bonnie Chin

While on Monday, I took bus from KL down to Penang.. It took me 4 and a half hours =.= Not so much of a big deal compared to KT =P The journey was pretty boring laa.. LOL.. What can I say about Penang? Hmm.. Its very classically view(to me) and its very very small.. LOL.. I remember some of the shops.. which I was passing by few times aday.. lolz.. The first day.. Upon the arrivaly, Dickson picked me up from the bus station then we went to his working place as he practises his songs then we go home and rested for a lil while then we went to Wong Kok to makan.. XD What we ate..?? Hmm.. Shark Fin soup =.= (wei lim will hate this =.=) sort of bird nest, beef noodles and some other food which I dont quite remember.. XD But it was pretty ncie and satisfying.. XD Oh yes!! We met up with Laoda and 单纯的小绵羊！Seriously.. I dont know hwo to introduce him =.= hahaha.. He was rather.. hmm.. very quiet I would say.. XD Far quieter than what I expected.. XD It was indeed very kind of them to show me around town and I actually feel bad cause Laoda have to work that next day -_-" Sipek Paiseh =.= Nevermind,.. My treat next time in KT =P If you guys ever came around laa =.= Hahaha.. They showed me the Penang town and told me lots of "tales" of Penang.. Hahahaha... and They brought me to see A gua too =.= swt.. go penang see agua -_-" hahahaha... the thing that I remember most that night was the "Nasi Beratur" =.= It was pretty late at night and there;'s really ppl beratur-ing to buy the rice -_" I'm real speechless =.= Then we met up with Gilson nearby the Sunway Hotel.. Ate =.= I think a lot loh we ate... maybe 30 or 40 bucks? I'm not that sure =.= Paiseh and thanks for everything -_-" Then Laoda and Vanila went back while I followed Gilson.. Its also evry kind of him to bring me to the other part of Penang =.= And he also ahve to work the next day -_-" I seriously felt bad for them =X So basically I rounded half of the Island that night.. LOL.. XD

The next day, Dickson brought me go makan also.. Asam laksa.. oh my~~ Its nice!! but Dickson was screaming cause he cannot take hot stuff.. but tis not that hot actually.. But its really nice.. =P then we bought some "yao zhar guai" special one.. and sipek long one... every kind we get one.. and OH NO!! its one of the best yao zhar guai ever!! nice ncie and thumbs up for that!! Also the black soya milk.. YICHIBAN!! XD then we went home sit sit sleep sleep play paly a while then we go for steamboat.. in 辣妹子(la mei zi).. we ordered 2 soups.. and ingredients which cost us around 120 bucks.. LOL.. But its really nice laa.. hahahaha... and the hot soup is only for me.. Dickson was screaming for help just by taking a sip of it.. LOL XD Later at night, Gilson picked me up together with Jenifer for drinks in one of the lounge and sang a lil.. and drank a lil.. but not drunk.. LOL.. Its pretty fun larh.. and there's a table of Old JieJiesss.. LOL.. when I look at them, I just felt funny.. Dont ask me why.. XD about 1 plus we send Jen back to TARC, also a chance for me to take a look at Penang's TARC.. XD That's the night laa... LOL

The next day, at first I was suppose to have a date with Bai Bai, but then there's something happened in between so we called that off.. so I remove all the make ups and continue sleeping.. XD Till Gilson called and ask whether wanna have lunch together.. then he brought me to makan Penang's Curry noodles.. hahaha.. the curry is a lil different from those in KT.. Taste different too.. but its nice and its very filling... I realised the whole trip was all about eating eating and eating.. Rememebring when I first arrived in Penang, Dickson told me that there's not much fun in Penang but food.. LOL.. XD You know what? You wan eventually find food everywhere!! LOL.. XD You'll never go hungry in Penang =P Then after that I took the 2 30 bus back to KL where I reached about 8 at night =X An hour longer than the trip before =.= Then then.. Here I am~~~ *shyshy* blogging here.. XD As usual, Pictures time~~ XD

Laoda - Jetson

单纯的小绵羊 =P

Food~~

Randomized

Asam Laksa! I love this =X

Black Soya Milk

Yao Char Guai!! XD

Dickson - preparing

I love this shop cause the cartoon's veyr veyr cute XD

By the lounge =X

Curry Mee

Gilson

Tata Penang ^^

Random pictures I took before.. hahaha.. A day with Tony Roma :

Bonnie

David

Shopping with Bonnie :

A day in Fusion Haven :
Hahahhaa.. the tauke very cute one.. when I stepped into the shop.. He said :" I knew you will come! I can predict your coming cause its holiday now! =P" Loyal fans of Fusion Haven I am =P

My seafood carbonara!!! Yum yum~~

David's

FOC desert from the Tauke XD

I wonder if I gained weight.. Its all about eating for the past week~~ XD MamaMiaaa~~ XD

Favourite song my mine to share..

I LOVE KHALIL!!! T_T

Muaksss!!!! *shyshy* =P

Oh Happy Day~

2009-06-08T22:08:00.003+08:00

HOT HOT HOT!! It is so very the hot here in KL.. LOL.. Really beh tahan.. even at home, I am sweating like I just showered -.- hahaha anyway, I had fun for the past few days.. Hahaha.. It is so fun that I am so happy.. =P I went out the other day, with a few of them.. A bunch of them I would say.. A rather big group.. hahaha.. Sang K, talked, crapped, met with them.. Just makes me so happy.. Even though it might be surreal in the eyes of some people, but its so real to me that I've known them.. My friends.. =P There's basically about 15 of them, Lemme name them, Hei Hei, Milen, Oreo, Ah Jeff, Ah Bing, Sukiyi, Ah Gua, Shan Shan, Banana, Guai Guai, Bai Bai, Mei Mei, JK, Maksim, Lao For.. and of course A Von Hahahaha.. Its pretty fun to see then and yes.. I'm very very very happy.. Seriously, I'm kinda blank for blogs now.. But just wanna jot down some memories.. Hahaha.. Basically, we overnight-ed at Hei's house and we went to sang K and all.. hahahhaa.. =.= Dont think you guys could feel the joy through my typing.. Cause I am kinda blur now =.= But I'll try my best for a proper post when I get home or come back from Penang.. Oh yes! I am going to Penang tomorrow.. =P Photos and proper update about my fun time the other day and my Penang trip will be up rreal soon!! Stay tune~~ =P

初次见面

2009-06-03T13:53:00.008+08:00

This post will be in chinese =P

瓦老的！KL真的很热咯！甚至还热过KT.. 哈哈哈。。无论如何，到这里已经第三天了啦~ 感觉好不错叻。。哈哈。。昨天下午和堂姐去吃了个饭就返回加收收下屋子。。然后晚上，哥哥的朋友来帮他弄那个头发。。拖拖下就11点多了。。哈哈。。然后他们说要去station one 喝茶，想想下。。eii?? Subie不是今晚在那里驻唱吗？Oww~~不错不错。。顺便去捧个场。。还没去到就听到kafu的声音了。。说实在，不认识kafu。。但是他唱歌还几好听下。。一进到去，看到subie时，不知道是我perasan还是看错，subie好像也是朝我们这个方向看过来的。。我只好扮不知道，傻笑的走过。。毕竟我们也没见过面嘛。。哈哈哈。。然后点了饮料后，跟那个waiter那张纸和笔，就留了个言托他pass给Subie.. 哈哈哈。。然后我才发觉到 -。-我的妈呀！我不太会写华语字！=。= 打字还可以选。。自己写我就swt 99了。。=。= 所以那张纸还写得蛮乱七八糟的。。哈哈哈哈哈。。可能这也是为什么我这篇post要打华语吧。。就是为了要证明我对华语字(Chinese/踩你死) 并不陌生！USH! 其实只是自我安慰罢了啦。。 T_T Anyway，他们驻唱完了。。Subie走过来他个招呼然后说几句。。哈哈。。第一次看到他。。还蛮可爱的一个女生。。下次有机会的话，再去捧捧场啦~ 哈哈哈。。偷拍了两张照片。。 XD

加油啦~~~ XD

KL

2009-06-02T13:25:00.008+08:00

wakakaka.. Aloha folks~~ XD I'm so into holiday mood now~~ YoooHoo~~ Apparently in KL now.. will be here.. hmm.. most probably through out the holiday.. depends on mood.. XD Am planning to go down to Penang in some tme between though.. Will see how things work.. XD

So, yesterday morning I took bus down to KL all the way from KT.. Which was started about 10 in the morning and I reached KL 6 15.. @@ Bus trip was not bad laa.. Thanks to the sleepless night before.. I could read and sleep through the whole trip.. Wakakaka.. Although there's a few ppl who's kinda noisy and snore "just a lil" too loud.. =.= Other than that.. things were pretty fine for me throughout the whole trip XD

Like I said earlier, I reached here about 6.15 in the evening.. and I stopped by the titiwangsa lrt station, and take on from there back to David's house.. waited for him for a lil while and bathed and there off we to KLCC~~ XD We went for a meal in Chili's and went for movie.. hahaha.. Poor brother of mine.. He accompanied me for movie.. I'm not sure whether he's really into movie mood or not.. XD butwe watched Night At The Museum 2 and the movie started at 10.45 and ends around 12.30.. and the next day he has to work.. Where to find sucha brother?! (Don't tell me your home cause I have the best brothers ever in my house..!! Wakakakaka.. XD)

Again will I end with some pics.. will update blog from time to time.. and I'm definitely looking forward towards this Saturday! XD Adious leng chais and luis~~ XD

As usual, he's zi-pai-ing in the lrt station =X

Candid snap while waiting for food..
I think this' pretty nice.. XD
I took it.. Better say yes.. XD

wait wait and wait =S

Starter

David's

Christina's

Desert.. Yummy yum~~ =P

Hmm.. =X

You know what.. The waiter thought David and I are couple.. -.- This isnt the first time people told us that.. -_-" Remembering the last time we were in Station 1.. The waitress told me "Your boyfriend very tall hoh.." Swttt!!! Dont u guys think we look alike?? XD hahaha Funny case..

This will be the very end of this post.. A rough view of the "situation" of the room.. You will be able to differentiate the before and after when I start my cleaning work which is a MUST and routine to all my KL trips -.-

Happy Holiday People~~~~ XD

Hahahaha

2009-05-27T00:42:00.012+08:00

I'm clueless for the title.. So, I typed hat Hahahaha.. Cause I'm currently on a high mood~~ Why why?? good question~~ Cause I just got my RM1K from Terengganu's government~~ Why they give me? Cause I am leng lui marh haiyor!!! XD =P NO larh.. Its actually because I studied Form 6.. In terengganu, if you study form 6, you'll definitely get this 1000~ XD What if you're not a Terengganu-born-kid? Well well.. Look at our Ms Palia Low Yong Ching, a Malacca-born-kid, Johore-long-stayed-kid, got also 1000!! HOW CAN THAT BE?! =P hahaha She even cursed me! US! that we couldnt get our shirt size or shoe size in shopping!! XD Why so? cause at first shewas told that she couldnt get that for its only for anak Terengganu =P But later on the teacher helped a lil I guess and she got it =P She's kinda excited XD and she sipek KNS loh! Dont even wan to treat us!! KEDEKUT BETUL!! XD hahahaha.. =P Lemme show you the money~~~ =P

Look at the notes.. Excited boh? XD =P
Well I am =P Doesnt matter if you dont =P

And of course, the 4 of us did a lil siao kia stuff in the DUN's hall.. Yen yen, Pei Juin, Yong Ching and I XD =P My 6th form playmate~~~ XD Show some pics~~ XD

SS~ Always the smarter choice?? =X

Dont pray pray.. These numbers worth a thousand ringgit! XD

I see money!! I smell money!! 0.0!!

Desperate students =X

.....
Speechless =S

hahahaha kiddosssss~~ XD

After getting money, surely spend one larh.. LOL... we had our dinner and chill around McD for a while before we go to tuition.. We ended up arriving an hour before the tuition~ However.. we were satisdied with it cause we "won" =P the 3 of them would understand this XD That's all for now.. Again will I end with some pics~~~ XD

We found this out of sudden... wakwakakaka... XD Pretty interesting cause it was first written "Babi Kotor" then ~~someone~~ circled the "kotor" and wrote the "sangat" and "sedap" with liquid paper.. only then I noticed, there's another "sangat" over there(the red circled one -.-) Pretty sweatish.. But Its kinda funny!! XD

Ps : KL and Penang(hopefully) I'm coming!! Muahahahaha XD

Prayer Needed

2009-05-13T23:41:00.005+08:00

Pastor Peter Chin from Ipoh in ICU now
Fainted at his house just now
And was said that there's blood in the brain
However, they did an operation on draining out the blood,
The pressure now is lowered and considered stable
Doctor says that he's still now under observation
Might need another drain out if the pressure remains high
Please pray for the pressure to continue lower down and stabilized
Do uphold him in prayers
Many thanks ^^

Do visit GEPC'S blog for follow up..

*Updated 15th May 2009*

Ps Peter is currently undergoing operation..
Its said to be a very high risk operation..
Please pray for God's mercy and healing..
Started 5pm, estimated hours : 5

*updated 16th May 2009 - 01:49*
The operation is very successful..
Please continue to pray for recovery
Cause couldnt really identify whether there are damages or not till he wakes up.. =）

Blessed Mother's Day

2009-05-10T23:16:00.007+08:00

Firstly, I'd love to wish every mothers a very very Blessed Mother's Day! I bet is never easy to bring up kids huh.. Especially if you found kids like me! So problematic at times.. But.. I very cute one leh T_T =P hahahaha Ok, before i get too perasan, better stop it.. XD

Today, very early in the morning, I woke up, drove to get my mum a boutique of flowers(the one on top), wrote a card, and there it goes.. Hahaha.. Those are my fav flowers.. XD Roses, carnations and lavenders!! I'm glad that my mum loves it.. And its out to my surprise that my mum didnt really scolded me when I gave her the flowers compared to last year I was "scolded" XD But that only lasted for a while.. My dad said she's sipek happy.. hahaha... If you see my mum, its very obvious that she is so happy.. hahahaha... Today's pretty normal, we had a meal in D'village and day continues, but mum, I love you very much and love you same everyday ^^ I may be bad, may be rebellious at times, but, you never fail to play a big role in my heart! With loads of love and gratitude.. Muakss! =)

Leng Lui~

Leng Chai~

Hungry? Awww.. Too bad for you XD

Truly loved =)

A bad week. A wonderful day.

2009-05-06T11:34:00.005+08:00

This week is kinda messed up -.- Kinda... blur and "suey" I would say. Firstly, I lost my purse.. I dropped it somewhere, and I wonder is it good or bad -.- "The fella" that found it, gave back the IC, license and atm cards, but not the purse and the money T_T How? He(I think) put those stuff inside an envelope, and stuff inside my neighbour's mail box and I had my neighbour running to my house door shouting "San~~~~ Faster! Your IC!" I was like huh?! what? =.= Totally blurred. Maybe I should be thankful cause atleast he sent back the IC and all.. But very "suey" one loh =.= At first I thought I can get mt new hair mask cream.. should be kinda happy... mana tau.... haizz.. T_T I shouldnt withdraw extra money laa! If I knew this would happen, Isurely, I wont withdraw extra money T_T My money aaaaaaaaaaaa~~~~ T_T

Today, just now, I had my speaking test(Oral test) for MUET, it was very fun, most probably its because I love to talk and the question's kinda easy.. Hahahaa.. And I am so SO SO proud of the malay guys in my group! They did everything that I asked, the discussion was far way better than what I thought! Really thank God! Though it was kinda funny during the discussion.. Where everyone, including the examiners were laughing.. hahaha.. But overall, it was real good.. Why do we laugh? LOL.. cause Syed, he was stucked, lost for words I think, where he kept on repeating "it is.. it is.. it is.. it is.." then he laughed himself, followed by Faiz, Fakri, myself and the examiners.. Hahaha.. I was so depressed you know! Want to laugh out loud but cant -.- Felt so bad =.= If you know me in person or elsewhere.. You should know how I laugh XD Trademark.. Can't help larh... LOL XD =P And ya.. we were "communicating" under the desk where legs were kicking -.- Indicating that who wants the turn or its time to end the discussion... It was so funny.. Because right == When Syed passed the turn to me, its like the final minute already, When I open my mouth to talk, Fakri's already kicking my leg, indicating me that its time to end our discussion =.= So I was kinda == speechless and lost when he kept on kicking.. But it was funny.. hahaha and I really really do enjoy the test today.. I too, think the examiners enjoyed our discussion.. cause they were laughing away and they said "Thank you, it was indeed a very good discussion" whereby the other groups werent told so.. Wakakaka.. Is that something good? LOL hope so =P And I really thank God that my brain can function pretty well even though I only slept for an hour or so =.= Meaning my brain's not bad.. wakakakakaka.. XD However, I'm still worried about the writting paper.. Haiz.. Hopefully things will go fine.. T_T

I'm going to claim the cheque from Nuffnang! XD Finally its 50 bucks! T_T After soooooo long aiksss.. =.= But I am so glad!! T_T I would like to thank God, my dad, my mum, my brothers, bla bla bla bla~~~ XD

And.. there's a relative passed away... Its like hmm.. Life's so fragile.. Its like here today and gone tomorrow? Things are unpredictable.. How if, I am dead tomorrow? I think I will feel regret and unsatisfied.. hahahaha.. But I wonder, what will it be like? Will it be good? or bad? God says he gives eternal life to those who believe, and they will not be perished.. Its good to know there is a God who reaches out to you, always there, always will be.. Its been quite a while since I really go to church, now MUET's done, I should go back to church as I promised.. I feel like I'm so far away again, I miss You =)

MUET Exam

2009-04-26T22:51:00.010+08:00

Ohhhhh well well.. I'm not doing so good currently, especially afer I found out that I wrote about the wrong stuff in my Writting paper.. I didn't mean it.. (Oh yes! I still did it wrongly -.-) Though the other papers were okok to me, but the writting paper really brought me down to the pit! -.- Yes I cried. For nothing wakakakaka... But I'm now ok.. Cause =.= People kept one telling me "Never mind larh.. Can retake ma..." WALAO! who on earth want to retake la?! T_T But I think it stands a high chance for me to retake.. hahahaha.. =.= Why am I laughing btw? =.= I really don't want that.. Just pray that everything's gonna turn out fine.. Haiz.. Will be having the my speaking test on.. early may 5th or 6th =.= I am getting more and more nervous now.. Words just couldn't express my feelings now.. I.. am.. hmm.. nervous.. couldn't really think of another word to describe.. hahahaha.. Just hope for the best~~ ^^

Anyway, it seems to be my blog has been kinda down.. Its actually because of me.. I dont really have to mood to update the blog properly.. No feel I would say.. hahaha.. But there's many many fun things happened recently.. One of it is.. our visit to DUN and the Terengganu's Court.. Seriously, I really enjoy myself there.. Both the places.. hahaha.. lots of fun.. and yes.. got to know things that never got the chance to know... Oh well.. the "debating" in DUN was.. whoopingly amazing!!! XD I forgotten the fella's name.. He is just just just so good! Oh my my.. Oh please I'm not in love with him.. hahahaha.. But I really like the way he talks.. XD Its like indirectly direct LOL.. XD btw I love the puisi he read.. Wonder if I can get a copy wakkakaka XD =P I'll end with pictures laa.. Like I said. I'm not on the moood of blogging XD So, bear with me folks~~~ XD

我的第一次 =)

2009-04-09T19:17:00.008+08:00

无端端, 很想打个华语部落篇..
我应该没打过类似的post吧
哈哈！可能是ki hiao吧 =P

现在心情感觉上闷闷的..
心窄窄的..
很想哭，但是又哭不出来..
有些事情也许怎么烦也帮不上忙；
正所谓的：多烦也只是多余；是无能为力的..
毕竟有些事情事不在我们可控制的范围内
也许只有默默的祈祷才帮得上忙吧 =）
陈狄珊，加油加油加油！^^

最近有一种怪怪的感觉，
不知道是好事怀
但是还蛮奇怪的
心里有很多话想说
但是就是不懂要告诉谁
口头上，面容上，
都保持着疯疯癫癫，38的
但是其实有点像自high
不知道自己在做什么
哈哈哈，也许现在的我变了很多
以前的我，没有酱疯癫，没有酱开朗
甚至比现在还要孤僻，文静，melancholic(不知道华语怎么讲=。=)
也许是因为这数个月来（快一年了吧^^）,
认识了很多很好的朋友。。
可以很颠的，可以在低潮时给于鼓励的，
38的，搞笑的，干纳赛的，很好很好的朋友 =）
参得他们太多，自然而然的也变38了许多=P
但是很庆幸，因为知道有朋友的陪伴是幸福的 =）

最近都在下雨，打雷之类的..
多某些人来说，可能是坏天气，
但是雨天对我来说
确是很好的天气..哈哈
可能是因为我怕热吧=。=
可是，不知道从几时开始，
开始爱上了下雨天..
喜欢聆听雨滴的声音..
喜欢那冷冷的感觉..
一到雨天，我就自然而然的会笑了起来
那天，站在balcony看着那一场雨
情不自禁的把手伸出去
试着去回味一些事情
但是有些事情就像雨点
降落了，无论我怎么试着去装它
都不会成功的..哈哈
但是看着雨点，
我怎么笑了？
我也不知道..
哈哈..傻婆一个。。
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I realised quite a number of my blog's readers couldn't read chinese -.-
So here is the translation XD

Currently feeling one kind, prettty down, feel like crying but I couldn't.. There are things which is out of our control, sometimes no matter how much you worried about it, it is just a waste, in other words, its sort of useless larh XD I think what's left to do is to pray =) GoGoGo~ Christina! XD

I'm having this weird feeling recently.. Whether its good or not, I've no idea.. But its kinda weird larh XD Its like I have lots of things to say/to tell someone, but I dont know who to turn to =X Seriously, I'm well impressed by myself.. I can be real insane, playful and 38 around.. When I dont even know what's wrong with myself.. A bit syiok sendiri.. lolz.. XD I bet I've changed a lot.. The Christina before this was kinda dull, melancholic, quiet and rather emo.. hahaha.. And in the past few months, I've got to know a lot of really really good friends who can be real crazy, can bring joy when I'm down, real 38 and really really good friends.. I think I become more and more 38 because of mixing up with them.. lolz!! XD =P But I'm really thankful cause its really nice to have friends around =)

It had been raining for the past whole week.. Daily without missed.. Maybe to some people its kind of bad weather, but to me, it is really good.. hahaha.. Most probably cause I'm scared of hot weather =.= Whatever it is, I just found out that I love rainy days.. I wonder when I enjoy them..I love the raindrop sound, like the cooling weather and all.. Whenever its rainy days, I'll definitely be happy XD The other day, I stood by the balcony, alone. Staring at the pouring rain, suddenly I reach out my hand to feel the rain.. Trying to recap some memories.. Memories are like rain drops.. Once its poured out, no matter how hard you try to keep/collect it, it'll still fails.. But looking into the rain, I laughed by myself.. Why? I've no idea too.. Siao po I am! XD

Miserable life

2009-03-31T22:51:00.004+08:00

Haha, finally, a proper update. Actually I'm not in the mood for updating, guess that I dont have the time either.. My life's had been so busy, especially recently -.- Its just that, I'm trying to pour out some feelings before it caught me no where.. Many things happened recently, either its in school, among friends, or personally.. I'm seriously tired. Some sort like feeling to bang my head against the wall? =X In other words, "long piak" larh.. lolz..

School. Rather stressful, had been exercising my brain, fingers and eyes a lot this few days.. Wake up at 4am to read/do notes, school till 5, tuition at night, sleep then the routine repeats. Very hmm.. restless, tired and I'm a lil frustrated and of course out of my mind.. I've been talking things weirdly -.- The problem is, I dont even know what was I talking about.. And now, the principal says wanna do night classes.. OH GREAT! I'm "SO THANKFUL"! Puhleaseeeee! I find it hard to concentrate in school, with the uniform + tie, hot weather which almost got me fainted, and the worst is, we finishes school at average time by 4:30! Bla bla bla, rush home, around 5 larh.. then night class start at 8, might as weel we camp in school, save petrol, time and all -.- Dont get me wrong, I'm not saying that school teachers arent good, in fact, I truly appreciate their teaching =) the problem is, I find it hard to cope up at times.. And by adding in night classes, where can we find time to do our revision? Weekend? Oh well, Friday's totally out, more to a church day, Saturday? Its either tuition or school(again?!).. =.= How can I not be crazy? -.-

Friends. Hmm, sometimes, its like when you're entrusted by a friend(X), to do something but was told that not to expose his/her identity, so, as being entrusted, I shouldnt tell or expose right? Oh please, although I got kinda bad result for Moral in SPM, but at least I know this larh! =.= Its like there's a friend, not so a friend maybe(ZzZz) kept on asking and asking and at last, put the blame on me cause not letting him to know the identity of the paricular person involved, I was like, WHAT THE?! -.- Please, c'mon, are you even a guy? -.- Seriously,(guys take note) I dont think there's girls who will pick up someone who is very narrow-minded/siu hei/xiao qi as a bf, I personally wont, I mean, its more to a girl's personality -.- When you make some statements, CLAIMING that you yourself sacrificed a lot and bla bla bla, and feel tired and just quitted half way(alright, we take it that you really did a lot of stuff), then, this will be my question to you, THEN THE OTHERS NEVER SACRIFICED LARH?! We too feel tired, but we persevered, that's our difference! You're weak! Oh well, I shouldnt mind so much but then it really pissed me off, to the maximum.. But atleast, now I know who worth my pour outs and sacrifices, I truly appreciate and cherish ya' all =) and YES! I truly appreciate those who kept pressing on and sacrificed =) *shyshy* XD =P

Personal thing, hmm, kinda emo recently, can be rather absent-minded.. I.. seriously dont know why.. Maybe its because of lack of sleep/rest? Stress? Or is it that, my emo season is back =.= I really dont know.. All I know is, I'm very, super, duperly tired.. I need rest... =(

Funny clips! XD

2009-03-25T16:24:00.000+08:00

Oh no! I realised I've been posting quite a lot of funny clips in my blog... but wat to do? sharing is caring marh... I'd love to share with you guys something that caught me laughing for days... XD

This 2 particular videos.. lolz!! was sang by a korean guy, same guy.. Its just funny.. You wont be able to understand it until you hear it.. lolz!! o, hope you enjoy =P

Touch my body(tuts my barreh) - Mariah Carey

We belong together - Mariah Carey

Swiddler~~~ GAY! XD
Who's gonna tape your breast -.-
Rape me at my thigh -.-

Really swt!! -.-
Hope you enjoyed your laugh =P